The Words I Speak

Just A Friend

I know I'm only kidding myself

Hoping for more than "just a friend"

I've watched this movie several times before

In the ending I always get hurt

I better stop repeating this pattern

It's getting tiresome on my heart

There is no way she could ever feel the same

So why lose my sanity over it

I'll pretend to not care

I'll fake my every smile and blush

Till I make it to the day

It doesn't matter at all

I can't help the lip curl when I see her

Or when my body pulls me like a magnet

Or how my attention isn't on the lecture

But on every single move she makes

This is the start of a torture

When my cheeks burn red

And every thought is about her mind

I want to dive in the oceans wide

But I'm afraid of dipping my feet in the water

I never learned how to swim right

I've already drowned several times

I can't always depend on my last breath

For whose to say I'll survive this one