The Words I Speak

Blue Heart 💙

The strings you played

The symphony you made

The words you said

Are harmonizing in my ears

Those letters you wrote me are yet to fade

But when things got tough I grew terribly afraid

The last thing I heard

Was your shouting and screams

Accusing me of all that went wrong

Blaming it all on me

Devouring your alcohol and breaking the glass

And at the end of the night you'd cry out your eyes

You'd beg me to stay

And I'd try to push you away

I got used to the fights till 3 in the morning

Neighbors calling cops cause you weren't listening

"Useless" "Pathetic" "A sad excuse of a woman"

And all those names you said as if you're a trueman

Pulling me by the hair pushing me into the ground

You'd tell me I wasn't needed to be around

I was hurt broken shattered

Wondering where is the man that I once loved

Where did that man disappear to

Why didn't he take me with him if so

I realized that man was nonexistent

As he was nowhere to be found

But I stood by being persistent

I laid there lost in despair and frowned

Life rolled by and I'm standing on the sidelines

I can't imagine why I kept on ignoring all the signs

I let myself be blinded

That I was never enough to begin with

Withstanding the extreme heat of your hits

Shattering my ribs into bits

The pieces of my heart has long-left my soul

This is all my fault I've dug my own hole

Life moves too fast and my pace is too slow

I can't keep up with that rate I can't roll with the flow

It's time I leave now no more holding back

You made it clear of everything that I lack

Goodbye the once was an angel

I now shall rise into the sky like an eagle