The Words I Speak

Fuck You (actually)

I guess the thrill is gone

I'm in my dark house, can't even call it a home

Sitting here and the only sound I hear

Is the strings of my heart tearing apart

Why are you holding the scissors ?

I kept warning you to never point them at me

You swore it wouldn't even be in your wildest dreams

I'm closing my heart and locking it away

Throwing the key and hope it doesn't swim to bay

I let you in

I opened my doors

You promised on every star

That you're here for me through the lows and the highs

Now here we are

I don't think -no I know

That I'll never be able to trust anyone again

You were the exception to every rule

I welcomed you in, showed my dark days

Spilled out my guts and I didn't even get to the worst part

"You don't leave I don't leave"

That was the deal

You threw me a grenade that exploded in my face

And I thought it was just a piece of cake

What lie did you tell to fabricate the truth ?

I can't believe any of the words you've said to me

Cause if you could break promises of forever

What stops me from thinking if you ever really were honest

I told you "I usually go through this alone"

You said "never again"

I told you "reject me now so I can move on"

You said "I don't want to lose a friend"

I told you "break my heart now or never do it"

You said "never"

I told you "I'm afraid you'd be the one to ruin my life"

You said "I won't"

"I'm terrified" I cried it over and over

"I never want to hurt you" it rings everytime my chest stings

So why am I in so much pain ?

Not from that love I had for you

But from those empty words