Roses【Laurence X Reader】[ Completed ]

[ Chapter 76 : Grieving ]

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Y/n's pov.   

I stare down into the glass filled with scotch that I found in the cabinet, it's my fourth?, Fifth glass?, I think my alcohol tolerance is getting strong because the drunkenness hasn't hit me yet. I've gotten my mind off what dad said but, I just can't seem to stop thinking about the situation I was in. Could I have stopped her?, Maybe I shouldn't have tried two clicks, maybe it should've been me.

You should've died!

What could I have done in first place?, I wish I can turn back time, Claude told me dad's drinking too, I'm not surprised he has before but this is just the different situation for him to drink for. Mom's gone in a blink of an eye, I've gotten over it, I know myself, I always get over things quick but I don't know why I can't sleep. I know sleeping through things like after killing people or someone die is bad but I've gotten used to it since this is the world we're living on, what I didn't understand why can't I sleep now?, Is it because I'm currently thinking this hard about it?, Or my brain won't let me until I figure out.

Am I going insomniac?

" Y/n? "

I grab my gun next to the bottle of scotch and turn around aiming it quickly.

" Whoa! " I gasp and stand here to see Laurence with his hands up startled by me.

" L-laurence? " I lower my gun and look around.

" Why do you have a gun out? " He asked.

" W–. . .what are you doing up? " I asked.

" It's 5am, I was going to do my morning run " he lowers his hand and I look around then found the digital clock on the wall.

I sigh as I realized what I did, then put my gun on the table.

" I'm so sorry " I rub my face and notice I spilled the glass of scotch.

" Are you okay? " He asked, I nodded.

" Yeah, I'm fine, I couldn't sleep so I wanted to drink " I turn around and put the cup up.

" I think you had enough " he grabs the bottle and close it where I notice I was already half through it.

A hand was on my shoulder and I turn around immediately to only still see my husband, he put his hand up and look at me in concern.

" Sorry. . .umm, I'll go clean this up, you should get ready for your morning run " I said and walk pass him to the drawer behind him.

I open it and see spoons, forks and other utensils, I furrow my eye brows then open the next one to see other utensils.

I could've sworn they're here

" Cabinet " Laurence said.

I stop myself then look up in front of me where the glass doors to the cabinet, looking through it is where I see the rags and towels.

" Thanks " I said and open it.

I grab one then close the door, I turn on the sink then soak the rag in the water.

" Hey, I think you should get some sleep" I hear him say.

" I'm fine " I said.

" You can take some melatonin, Fleur should have some in the bathroom cabinets " he said.

" I said I'm fine " I squeeze the water out of the rag and turn off the faucet.

I turn back to the table then start cleaning the scotch off.