Modern Lady in Ancient Dynasty

Chapter 42

Chapter 42

Dagmar's PoV

"If you really plan to make me fall for this kind of trap, if you really plan to make me fall this way in the first place, and if you really want to make me feel this 'indefinable feeling' towards you then..." He breathed. Natigilan ako sa paglalakad, "Congratulations, you finally did it."

My breathing became uneven because of what he said. I can even hear my loud heartbeat because of his words. Tila mahirap mag sink in sa aking isipan ang kanyang mga salitang binitawan.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. If you're thinking about what happened last time, I only saved her and that doesn't mean it means something." Huminga siya ng malalim, "I'm sorry, Dagmar. I didn't even expect that you were also there. Hindi ko alam at akalain na nandun ka rin pala... I guess we made each other miserable because of what happened. Please forgive me, my lady."

Sinubsob ko ang aking mukha sa kama ng maalala ko na naman ang nangyari kahapon. Naalala ko na naman ang mga salitang binitawan niya sa akin. Bakit ganon? Hindi na maalis alis na naman iyon sa isipan ko. Hindi ko maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman ko tuwing naaalala ko ang sinabi niya sa akin kahapon. It feels like my heart knows exactly what he meant, but my mind is too shallow to get what he said. This is getting weirder and weirder for me.

I sighed for the nth time. Humiga ako ng maayos at tinitigan ang kisame. Kanina pa ako ganito. Nakatitig sa kawalan at iniisip ang nangyari kahapon. I even hugged my blanket tightly if necessary. I tried to get it off to my head but it was all in vain. Hindi ko magawa. Pakiramdam ko hindi ko maintindihan ang sinabi niya, but at the same time, naiintindihan ko naman. I'm so confused. I tried to reminices what he said to me, at may posibilidad na pumapasok sa isipan ko.

"If you really plan to make me fall for this kind of trap, if you really plan to make me fall this way in the first place, and if you really want to make me feel this 'indefinable feeling' towards you then..." He breathed. Natigilan ako sa paglalakad, "Congratulations, you finally did it."

"Indefinable feeling..." I mumbled to myself. Kanina ko pa iniisip ito. Ano ba ang pakiramdam na hindi mo matukoy? Na hindi mo maipaliwanag? This is like a riddle to me. Well, I have a feeling that this is an easy riddle, but I make it so complicated. Ano bang nangyayari sa akin?

Natigilan ako ng may narealize. Posible kayang...?

I mean, I have this feeling for him. Hindi ko rin maipaliwanag ang nararamdaman kong iyon. I can't define what exactly that is. And it's my first time feeling this. Sa mga salitang sinabi niya sa akin... posible kayang? I shook my head. Baka mali ako. I doubt if it really is. Ayoko mag assume. Baka kung ano na naman ang kinalabasan sa huli. Baka kung ano na naman ang mangyari. I guess I'll just see what will happen next.

"I didn't mean to hurt you. If you're thinking about what happened last time, I only saved her and that doesn't mean it means something." Huminga siya ng malalim, "I'm sorry, Dagmar. I didn't even expect that you were also there. Hindi ko alam at akalain na nandun ka rin pala... I guess we made each other miserable because of what happened. Please forgive me, my lady."

Natulala na naman ako ng maalala iyon. He also apologized. Humingi siya ng pasensya. He says he's sorry to me. At alam ko naman agad kung ano ang tinutukoy niya. He's pertaining to what happened last time. Ang pangyayaring hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko makalimutan. It feels like that experience was carved within me. It hurts me yet I learned something from it. I guess I should just accept it. Tatanggapin ko na lang na nangyayari talaga ang ganong pangyayari. Mga pangyayari na hindi maganda at nakasakit satin. May ganon talaga sa buhay diba? It's not always about happiness. Sometimes, we could also experience moments that hurt a lot.