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Chapter 9

Sawyer POV

I wake slightly up when someone picks me up. I crack an eye open and see Serv's head. I close my eyes and just snuggle deeper. I feel him place me on my bed and the covers are pulled back and over me. I instantly roll over onto my stomach and cuddle into my pillow. I then hear Alex, "Night Sawyer, here's bear." She then places him next to me and kisses my head. Serv then kisses my head and sleep overtakes me.

I wake up still in my car seat, confused. I can tell I'm upside down and my whole body aches. I feel my head and see red sticky stuff on my fingers, what is that? Do I have a boo boo? I'm still clutching into bear and my eyes start darting around. I realize that I'm still in the car. I look forward and see mommy and daddy sitting in their seats too. "Mommy, daddy!" I cry out. I tell again, this time starting to panic when they don't respond, what's wrong with them? "Mommy, Daddy wake up! Please wake up! I'm scared!" I keep yelling out, crying harder until I hear my name in the distance. "Sawyer!" The car starts shaking, what is happening? "Sawyer! Wake up! It's just a dream!"

I jolt awake, holding tightly onto bear. There's a weight to my left and right.Y eyes dart around and I try to get my bearings. A weight falls onto my leg, I look down and realize it's Blue's head. I reach my hand out and touch him, his soft fur working to help calm me. I look to my right and see Alex and feel her rubbing circles on my back. I start sobbing uncontrollably and she pulls me in and gives me continuous deep pressure. I can't catch my breath and start panicking when she pulls back and looks me right in the eyes. She grabs my hand and places it over her heart so I can feel her heart beat and the rise and fall of her chest. I close my eyes and slowly feel myself slowing my breathing and calming down.

I retract my hand and start profusely apologizing, "Al-Alex I'm s-s-sorry for waking you! Wait did I wake up Charlie?! I'm so sorry!" I try to move away from her, but she stops me. "Hey, Sawyer, hey, it's okay, okay? Just keep taking deep breaths, good job. It's okay, you're okay. I nod and keep breathing slowly.

She looks at me worriedly, "I'm okay." "Okay. Blue was scratching at our door and whining like crazy, I opened it to just let him go, but then he went to your door and started whining. As I got closer I heard you crying out, so I came in."

I looked down. "Sawyer, I'm going to ask you something and I need you to be totally honest with me, okay?" I just nodded. I heard her take a deep breath, "How often do you have these nightmares?" I shrugged and stayed silent. I didn't want to tell her. "Sawyer, please. Please just talk to me." I could hear her voice waver, which made me look up at her. I sighed, "Every night." Tears welled up in her eyes when I said that and she just pulled me into a hug again.

"I-I don't want to talk about it."

"Sawyer, I think you need to talk about it. It's every night, you need your sleep, restful sleep. You don't have to talk about it with me, but you need to talk to someone."

I thought about it and needed a laugh, "What about Blue? He's probably a good listener." I scratched his head for good measure.

She chuckled and quirked her eyebrow, "While that's probably true, I mean a human being, someone that can talk back and help you through them."

I nodded and hummed. I stared at Alex, trying to think how to ask, but the words just kept getting stuck in my throat.

"Do you want to come sleep with Serv and I?" Liz must've told her that I'd most likely ask and must've noticed my internal struggle so she just made it easier for me.

I nodded. "Alright, let's go, come on blue, back to bed!"

Blue hopped off my bed and stayed close to me. I walked behind Alex with my bear and enter her and Serv's room. Alex grabbed my hand and lead me to her side and pointed. I hopped in next to Serv, Alex sliding in next to me. Blue was whining on the floor and I heard Alex groan, "Okay, come on Blue, up!" Blue hopped up and sought me out, curling into me and placing his head on my leg. I scooted close to Alex and grabbed onto her shirt, fisting it and putting my head on her chest. I heard her whisper, "Goodnight Sawyer, I'll always protect you." The last thing I remember is getting a kiss on the head and her wrapping her arms tightly around me.