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Chapter 24

Sawyer POV

"Be good, okay baby?"

"Yep, see you in a bit!"

I take off to find Bree in the training facility. I finally find her outside of her office. "Hi."

"Hey, you want to go kick? Figured we can talk out there."

"Sure."

We walk out to the fields and lace up our cleats. I see Alex talking to some reporters and smile. Have to be good today.

We start passing, "so how was your weekend?"

"Uh, good? Alex and Charlie surprised me which I think you knew." She nods.

"Alex and Serv won't let me sleep with them anymore.."

"I know." She says.

"I need them at night. My nightmares.." I trail off.

"What about them. We can work on them getting better. Going away."

"I-what? No! I'm not ready! You can't take them away. It's-its one of two memories I have left of them!"

"Sawyer, you have other memories with them."

"No I don't! I'm starting to forget!" I yell.

"Tell me the other memory." I stare at her.

I sigh, "It was my first time with a soccer ball. I tripped over it, I was three, my dad said, "You're okay Sawyer, you'll get it.""

"Which memory do you prefer?" I scrunch my eyebrows together.

"The soccer one." I say.

"Can I tell Alex about the memory?"she asks.

I hesitate, but sigh, "Yeah."

"When you start having a nightmare, her and Serv can try to redirect your brain by telling you about that memory if you're still asleep. Whisper it into your ear."

I nod, "That's kind of cool."

"So what else is up?"

I stare at her and think how to word this, "Uh, are you gay?"

She stares back at me, puzzled, "Yes? Why?"

I bob my head up and down, and mumble something.

"Sawyer, you have to speak up.."

"I think I might be? But I'm not sure and I really don't want Alex to know, it could ruin her and ruin everything. Holy shit they could like return me. I don't want that!"

"SAWYER."

I look up at Bree with tears in my eyes.

"Alex will still love you. Serv will still love you. Charlie will still love you. Alright? You're not ruining anything. They aren't going to return you."

I take a deep breath and nod.

"First of all, let's talk it out. How do you know?"

"I uh, I um, uh...have a crush?" I say questioningly.

She smiles, "Okay. Secondly, you know Alex is a huge ally, right? Like she will not care. If anything, she's very perceptive and might have an inkling but is waiting for you."

I nod. "Thirdly, who is it?"

My eyes widen, "Uh it's no one."

"Come on, tell me. Please!" She says.

"Fine. It's my best friend. And yesterday there was this whole pool moment and I'm pretty sure she wanted to kiss me." I say.

"Sawyer, this is a new revelation, we'll keep talking about it because big emotions come with it and you're not so good with emotions. Okay? It's not a bad thing. Just something we need to work on."