Saved

Chapter 34

Sawyer POV

I walk down the stairs and head to the kitchen. "Morning!"

"Hi baby, you sleep okay?" Alex says.

"Totally, I think that weighted blanket is helping." I say.

She smiles. "Big day today!"

I smile, "YEAH! I'm getting a puppy!"

"We will have to talk about it with Bree and figure out what you'll need help with, but it'll be so beneficial for you, baby."

"We're getting a puppy?!" I hear Charlie say.

Alex sighs and looks at Charlie, "It's going to be Sawyer's puppy okay? The puppy is going to be like her little helper. You remember red panda?"

She nods, "The puppy will help Sawyer not be the red panda."

She nods and I look down. "When are we going?"

"After soccer practice, Rachel will come on Wednesday instead of today."

"Cool." I hear my phone alarm go off, "Can I have my meds please?"

"Here, baby. I already had them ready." She kisses my head.

"Thanks momma."

"Alright, eat and then let's get to school."

I scarf down some waffles and then grab my stuff to go to school. Alex hops in the driver's seat and start our drive. I stare out the window and think about I haven't heard from Emily all weekend.

"What's wrong baby?"

I sigh, "Emily said something to me on Friday. I talked to Bree about it. But it just kind of threw me?"

"Well maybe I can take a stab at it?" She questions.

I take a deep breath, I mean I already told her I think I like girls, so at this point, it's worth a try. "She said she missed me at school. So I was uh- messing around and asked her who she was going to watch at practice? She said "I only watch you?" I- it confused me? I didn't know what she meant by that? So I asked her what she meant and she never replied." I sniffle.

We pull up to school, and Alex reaches over and takes my face in her hands, "It's okay baby. I think feelings are confusing for you, they're hard for everyone, but especially for you and there's nothing wrong with that."

I nod, "But what did she mean?"

She takes a deep breath, "I'm not 100% sure baby, maybe she doesn't even know and that's why she didn't reply to you. You can only control you, you can't control what others do, how they respond, what they say. Maybe she will talk to you today and explain."

I nod, "Yeah, maybe. What should I do?"

"I think you focus on having a good day and keeping it together, staying regulated."

I smile, "Okay, yeah. Thanks momma. Love you."

"I love you Sawyer. Be good, You've got all of your stuff?" I nod. "Alright, use your strategies, ask for-"

I roll my eyes, "Snacks, breaks, whatever else I need. I got it momma."

"Don't act like you don't need me." She pouts.

"I'll always need you." I say and walk away.

Alex POV

I smile when I drive off, 'I'll always need you.'

I head to the training facility for recovery and pull up to see Taylor getting out of her car. "Hey."

"Hello third child." I say.