Love What You Can't Have

We Have It All

I quickly finished my make up and slipped into my stunning dress that Arti got me. My assistant helped me zip up and put my red heels on. I quickly put lotion on my legs. I kept the red head piece in my hair, that I quickly straighten and curled. I smoothed my hair back and replaced it. I added a red lip and changed out my belly button rings to match other jewelry. I took a deep breath and headed out to the main hall. The Black and White ball was big and extravagant.

"This ball is fantastic, they have really out did themselves this year." Arti said to Jarvis. "Yes, I am very surprised." he agreed. "Maybe it was because of the big donation we made." she said sipping her cocktail. He looked at his wife. "Yes dear, it may be." he smiled wrapping his arm around her waist. "Have I told you how stunning you are?' "Yes, but I always like to hear it." she smiled at him. Gabe and Kourtney who looked stunning in her black dress with cut outs, she and Gabe looked fantastic next to each other. "This is so great, I have never experienced anything like it." she smiled. Her hair pinned back tightly, and her smile bright. 

"Has Aries returned, I don't want him to miss Phoenix when she enters." Arti said. "He is on his way, he went home to change his shirt." Dimitri said joining them. Rose and Michelle walked over with her husband. "How is Phoenix? Is she upset?' "I don't really know, she is worried about losing her chance for Julliard, but that is to be expected. She has got alot of praise." "She was wonderful, very strong, yet soft. I was impressed. You have done very well." Jarvis said. "Thank you Mr. Diamandis." Rose said with a little surprise in her tone. "Please call me Jarvis."  Rose nodded. Aries came in and finally joined them. He was in black slacks and a black button up dress shirt, he had a black suit jacket, to bring it all together. "Am I to late?' he asked. Dimitri handed him a drink from the passing waitress. 

"Ladies and Gentleman our performers tonight." the announcer said. The door opened and he said there names as they went down the stairs. "Ladies and gentleman, Miss Phoenix Mancuso." 

I came out, taking a deep breath. "Just breath." I said opening my eyes and hearing the cheers and clapping. I stood at the top of the stairs.

"She is stunning." Aries said seeing her in her fantastic gown, the red jewelry, the long slit on the fabric showing her incredible leg. Her smile was bright, her eyes were deep and she took my breath away. "Incredible." everyone said. She started down the stairs and was taken by the amount of people asking her questions, congratulating her, and hugging her. Camera's were blasting bright. She handled it with grace. 

"She is a natural. She is talented." Rose said about her daughter. "She is the bestest of friends." Kourtney smiled at her. She was finally able to get away, and moved towards us. She went to her mom and hugged her tight. "So proud of you baby girl." "Thank you, for everything." She smiled. She went to Kourtney and they hugged and cheered. "I love you so much bestie." Kourtney said. "Don't mess up my hair." Phoenix said. "Don't mess up my face." Kourtney said releasing her. She hugged Michelle and her husband, and even Drake. Gabe hugged her tight almost picking her up. Dimitri hugged her and told her she was great." "Thank you." she told him. She went to Arti and hugged her tightly. "You made us so proud." Arti said. "Thank you for everything." I told her. "You did great work, Phoenix, Arti is right you made us all proud, and thankful." Jarvis said. He gave her a hug. "Thank you Mr. Diamandis." she said finally facing Aries. He stood there with his hands in his pockets, looking at her. She walked up to him. "Can I talk to you alone please?' He nodded and followed her. She went into  a private room just down the hall and closed the door once they were inside.

"Look I am......" he started but she kissed him. He retuned kissing her back. The kiss was passion, the kiss was fire, the kiss was pure love. 

I released our kiss and looked at him. "Don't ever do that again." I told him and pulled him to me again. He kissed me back, and our hands went to ever ounce of our bodies. I grabbed his pants and started unzipping them. "What are you doing?" "What does it look like I am doing?" I said dropping his pants and taking him in my hand. He gasped. "Make it quick." I told him heading for his neck. He dropped his boxers and lifted my legs pulling my dress up. He had no barriers, and groaned once he realized there was nothing there. "I fucking love you." He said kissing my neck. "I love you too, now fuck me." I told him, and he thrusted inside of me with eagerness. My back arched, and his moan was loud. He pushed faster. I was already wet, ever since we danced. He kissed my throat, and my neck. He grabbed my other leg and wrapped it around him, making him move better, quicker and harder. I covered my mouth to silence my moan. He was clamping his teeth tight, he wanted to groan so badly, but we had to stay quiet. "OH god," I moaned as he thrusted harder. "Oh god, I love you." he said holding onto me as best as he could. I tighten my body on the verge of losing it. His body tighten as well and finally we released. He kissed me so passionately. We quickly gathered ourselves, fixing anything out of place with our clothing, hair and makeup. "I need a drink and a cigarette." I said fixing my top. I checked myself in the mirror. 

We intertwined our fingers and headed out to the others. He pulled my close and whispered. "I love you." I looked over at him and smiled. We joined our family again. "Everything okay?" Rose asked with large grin on her face. "It would be better with a drink." I said. "Yes, shall we everyone." Jarvis said snapping for a waitress. Aries pulled me close and we kissed. The night was filled with food, drinks, dancing and laughter. I had taken pictures with so many people and other performers. Alot of questions were asked. Like who was the guy joining my dance, I just smiled and said My boyfriend. The announcer finally called out what the crictics had wrote. Everyone did fantastic, but winning best performer and a small gift. They announced me. "Phoenix Mancuso stole the show with a strong performance and secret romance. She will top news in all her performances and we look forward to writing about her in the future." He announced. I had tears, I was thrilled. My family congratulated me. "Phoenix, you were most definiatly one of our bests and we are proud that you have joined out team, and look forward to where you will be heading, as a token. We here at Charleston Dance Academy would like you to have an internship at Julliard for one month before being fully accepted." "What?" I gasped. "That is right, our very own Phoenix has been selected to attend Julliard following her graduation. Congratulations!!" Everyone cheered. Aries lifted me in air he was so proud. I couldn't stop crying. I have never been so happy. I kissed Aries with so much love and happiness. The entire group hugged me. My mom cried holding me tight and then quickly called my dad.

I had it all. The support of family, my awesome friends, and the man I loved more than anything, more than dancing. I kissed him again. I had never thought, I would make it to Julliard. I never thought I would of fallen in love with the richest, hottest, smartest, unable to love type person, but I did, and he fell in love with me. I loved what I can't have, and made it all a reality. I got Julliard, I got friends, I got my angel baby, and I got my Greek god.