Love What You Can't Have

A Star Is Born.

I was up at 6 am. I talked to my father, who sadly wasn't able to make it in, but gave me the best well wishes and love. Little Ben is so handsome. I couldn't wait to see them. I went for a run taking my usual route. I stopped at the bakery and got coffee and pastries, and started home. I heard a car honking, I turned and it was Drake. "Hey you going home?" 'Ya, can you give me a ride?" "Of course for one of those pastries." I laughed and opened the door. I handed him the pastry box and got in closing the door. He was looking the pastries and grabbed one. "Why are you up so early?" "I was doing the walk of shame." "OH, new girl huh." "Old girl." He shrugged and took a bit of his pastry. "Are you taking over Aries old throne." He started laughing. "I guess I am, or these girls are just using me to get to him." "That could be, but I doubt it. Half these girls know he is taken." "Is he taken?" Drake asked me. 

I sighed. "Why aren't you with him?" "Fear?" "Fear?" he said. "He can have any girl he wants, why me?" "Why not?' "I am far from his type." "Aries never had a type." he lifted his eyebrows. "I guess not." "Just give him a chance." "I think I lost that chance, our last fight didn't go so well." He pulled into my driveway. "You could be surprised. Good luck tonight, I will see ya at the Ball, Princess." I got out and grabbed the box of pastry, and coffee. "Thanks Drake, see you later." I headed for the house. "Hey!" I turned and faced him. "Ya?' "Tell my sister thanks for the cherry danish." "She is going to kill you!!" He laughed and pulled away. I headed inside and upstairs, I knew my mom was still sleeping. "I bring coffee and danish." I said coming in the door. Kourtney jolted out of bed. She moved her hair out of her face. "What time is it?" '8 am, which is considered morning." "To early." "Coffee from Coffee Perks, with pastries." She jumped up and headed for the box. I grabbed my coffee and headed to the balcony. "How long have you been up?' she asked going for the pastries. "6am." "Hey, are we friends?' "What do you mean?' I yelled inside. She came out in just a tshirt and panties. "Where is the cherry danish." "OH yeah your brother said thank you." I smiled lighting the cigarette. "Are you fucking kidding me, that ignorant asshole." she went back inside. 

"When did you see him." "He was driving past and seem me and brought me home, I went for a run and then went tanning." I told her. "That ingnorant son of bitch." she came out with her coffee and cinnimon roll, and sat down with her phone texting her brother. "You going to put some pants on?' "Um why, I sleep with one brother, the other brother is never there anymore, and the middle brother doesn't care and eyes for the only one." "Your cute." I told her. She blew me a kiss and then sipped her coffee having a war with her brother. 

My mom came up. "Morning girls." she said in her robe. "Hi mom." we both said. "Phoenix I would get showered and ready we have to be at the hair dressers at 9:30. "oh shit, yeah." I said running to the bathroom. 

I sat in the dressing room, fixing my make up, when a knock on the door. "Come in." I said fixing my lip gloss. "More flowers Miss Phoenix." she brought some over setting them down. I grabbed the card. "Soar like the Phoenix you are. Proud of you kid. Love, Dad." They were birds of prey. I smiled and sat down again. I was starting to get nervous. I stood again and started shaking out my hands and legs. "I can do this." I said. I took my robe off. My costume was red. It was soft and flushed with my skin. Sheer fabric was pieced around me, giving the outfit some depth of movement. I had a red head jeweled headpiece that held back my hair. "You have 5 minutes Miss Phoenix." the same girl came in and dropped another thing of flowers with roses and Calla lilies. I grabbed the card. "Dance like you dance with me. Best wishes my Dancing Princess. Your Aries." I choked back tears. My red painted nails took a rose and smelled it, a single tear ran down my face.  "Its time Miss Phoenix." I nodded smiled and headed to the stage. 

I took another deep breath and walked out. I got into potion and waited for the curtain to rise. "Ladies and Gentleman, guests of all ages. We have had some great performers today." Everyone clapped. "Now our young performer coming on stage now, has been to many performances and many competitions, if you are a follower of her, you will know her well. If you had not had the privilege of watching her, then get ready because you will fall in love. She has performed in Pittsburgh, Pa, Paris, France, and now here with us. Phoenix Mancuso." he announced. I took my breath, stayed in my pose. The lights brighten, the music started and so did I. 

Aries: "Some of these performers are doing fantastic, I am so impressed." Arti told Rose. The announcer started and everyone kept there eyes. The man was talking Phoenix up and announcing how incredible she is. The curtain raised and she looked incredible. Her stance was strong and straight. I started getting edgy in my seat. We was in the front row, we seen everything up close and personal. She expelled beauty. Her song was like she was calling me. My leg was shaking. My mother looked at me. She nodded her head understanding in some way. Phoenix lifted her leg, swayed her hips. This song was driving me crazy. She wanted me to call her name, she wanted to give me herself and I was gonna get mine. She wanted me all night until morning.. I couldn't take it anymore. I got up and shouted. "PHOENIX!!!" She stopped as well as the music, she fiercly turned and faced me. She was breathing heavy, before I could stop myself, I headed up on stage. I walked towards her. "What the hell are you doing?" she said standing in front of me. "Dance princess." I told her. In the middle of the night, continued to play. "You are going to regret this." she smiled. She began dancing around me. She then took my arms and spread them out. She leaned her back against me and did a move where she held my arms and swayed back and forth and crouching down. She wrapped my arms around her and she lifted her leg, I barley helped her. The song changed tune and she ripped my shirt open and pushed away. She kept moving and dancing, flips and more. By the end of the song she was dancing with me again, at the end she bent backwards while I held her hips. The song ended and she sprung up. The crowd cheered and stood. I stepped back and let her have her moment.

She bowed and smiled. The audience kept cheering and clapping. She waved and smiled again. She then came over to me and grabbed my hand pulling to the side, while the curtain dropped. "What the hell are you doing, this could ruin me." she argued. "I couldn't think, that song was just telling me, you was telling me, that you loved me." "And that made you get up and  join me on stage?" "Phoenix, that song and that dance that was all your anger towards me, and yet you want me so badly, you want to be with me." "For someone who has the highest IQ, you are really dumb." she said heading to her dressing room. 

My shirt was ripped, thanks to Phoenix, half the buttons were on the stage. I really liked this shirt too. I buttoned what buttons I had and Dimitri gave me his jacket to cover up the rest. I sat back down and joined my family and friends. "How pissed is she? Should I go check on her?' Rose asked. "You can if you want, your her mom." I told her. "What made you do that?" she whispered. "I love your daughter." I answered. My parents, brothers, and Kourtney's family all looked at me. "I am going to marry her." I said sitting back. Rose headed to the dressing room. "Dude that was fucking awesome, she didn't even skip a beat." Drake said in my ear from behind. "You was great son." Arti winked.

Phoenix: I could not believe he did that. I sat in my chair a towel over my face. Although I was getting many compliments, I was worried that it ruined my chances into Julliard. My door opened and my mom, looking stunning in her dress came in. I got up and ran to her. "What the hell is he thinking." I hugged her tight. "Oh baby, he isn't thinking, that song was for him and he reacted." "This could kill any chances I had with Julliard." "I don't know babe did you see that responds? Everyone was standing and clapping and cheering. They loved it, they thought it was apart of the show." I stepped back and sat down again. A knock on the door and my instructors came in. "Guys I am so sorry." I started to say. "Why are you sorry, it was fantastic. I wish we would of known you was doing that, It was a wonderful surprise, all the critics stood with glee and cheer. They are still writing about you not even paying attention to the next act. You did kid, you did us proud." They hugged me. I looked at my mom. She was overwhelmed with pride.

The performances were over and I sat in my dressing room just staring at the many flowers and gifts. More came back after my performance. There were a few people who wanted to talk to me, so I cleaned up and headed out to the stage. Many reporters and other dance associates came up to me and asked questions. "How did you come up with these moves, or routines?" "I honestly just went from past performances and listening to my instructors, they are the ones who tell me what looks good, and I know what feels good. The song worked really well also." I smiled. "You did fantastic tonight, your name fit you so well. How did you feel about the performance?" "You always hope for the best and I think that came through, I hoped for the best, I did my best, that is all I can ask for." I told them. "Who is the gentleman that called your name?" I giggled. "He is a wonderful person, Thank you everyone." I said waving and walking away. They kept yelling my name but I just moved on and signed my name to a bunch of little girls, who looked up to me. I got pictures with them, waved and headed back.