It's been a minute. Ok, more like a FEW minutes.
I ended up falling out of routine the week prior due to being so busy with pre-recording videos for my fans while I was away.
NEVER AGAIN!
Do you know how much stress and anxiety I received on the days leading up to my vacation?
I don't care if I'll be gone for months, everyday uploads get tiring. Give your boy a break once in a while.
Last Friday until the day before yesterday was my vacation. I had mine cut short in order to make the ACTs. The original flight was supposed to come in, like, almost an hour ago, and I am NOT risking missing the ACT.
After all, this is my last one before I apply to universities.
Hopefully, Oxford waives the ACT score requirement because I didn't study yesterday nor sleep well last night. Why?
BECAUSE I WAS WORKING ON MY WEEKLY (on Fridays) LIVESTREAM FOR MY FANS!
I know, big mistake. I should've just uploaded my emergency pre-recorded video and called it a study day, but I didn't.
YouTube is my livelihood, I can't just give it up.
Now, all I have to figure out is how to sneak in coffee before Ana, Patrick, and Brandon return from the airport.
I'll make it as soon as I'm done writing this. I'm going to need a lot of it in order to survive today.
Thank god I don't have to go to piano practice today, but I still have Bible Study. It's over Zoom, so "no excuses" according to Ana's logic.
My vacation was great! Sure, there were a few minor hiccups, like my mother telling me I ruin her life after she made me get out of bed, sleep-deprived, in order to make it to the complimentary breakfast, my hotel served every morning (which, btw, was DISGUSTING), and not allowing me to wear boys clothing because she didn't want people to think I'm a lesbian. But other than that, it was pretty good.
I'm super proud of myself for sticking to my diet and somewhat sticking to my routine. I only indulged once at Cheesecake Factory, with Strawberry Shortcake, which btw, makes me get sick due to the heavy dairy in the vanilla ice cream.
Note to Self: NO. MORE. CHEESECAKE. FACTORY.
Sure, it's as close as I'll get to a 5-star restaurant, but it's also as close as I'll get to type II diabetes.
I honestly can't get mad at the situations between my parents and I described above.
I'm just too used to them now.
Daily Dose of Happiness
"The test of pleasure is the memory it leaves behind." -Jean Paul Richter
A memory that brought me pleasure today:
Sees Candies.
They were my childhood. Back when Ana and I were actually close, (yes, there was a time when we were actually close), we would always share one. They're the best chocolate candies to ever exist and the best invention since sliced bread.
Just kidding...
I hate bread.
Too many carbs, too difficult to burn, too much fat.
I haven't eaten bread since vacation, and honestly, the strawberry shortcake I had at Cheesecake Factory, was what made me gain 0.6 pounds.
But I bet that number went up, since I ate, like SIX PIECES OF FREAKING SEES CANDIES!
Don't worry, I already regret it due to the bad case of diarrhoea I've been having.
I can't help it. They're such a guilty pleasure. Especially since my period is just around the corner.
Another thing to remind me that I'm a biological female.
Just great!
I want to be able to better control myself, and my eating, and have more motivation to exercise.
However, I just think that I need to keep manifesting.
I have my vision boards. I look at them at least once every day...
So why haven't I manifested my dream body?
Then I realised I was missing one key component...
SCRIPTING!
Scripting as if I've already had my manifestations completed without obsession over the results will get me there quicker.
I'm going to make a separate, private manifestation script on Google Docs in which I'll write in and read every single day.
That's how I'll accelerate my results.
It's time to get my motivation back.
And that starts with a good anime episode.
