Yeah...you know how I binge take out for every meal, every day in New York?
I weigh 120 Ibs...almost my OG weight...I haven't weighed that much in a long time...
Regret is an understatement for how I feel about my size.
Ana finally noticed and is upset with me., but she's just as upset with herself and her size. She gained a whooping 11 POUNDS. She gained more weight than me. I was 113 before the NY trip.
Ana wants to go on this "Detox Weight Loss Journey" together.
Come on, we both know what'll end up happening...
I'll zoom WAY ahead of her with my dramatic results, and she'll be left in the dust forever binge-eating sweets and bread, and then skinny-shaming me.
It happened once.
I wouldn't be surprised if it happened again.
But maybe Ana is right...
Fruit for breakfast.
One sensible meal (Lunch)
Salad or doup for dinner (No more tortilla strips/extra carbs, or fruit/extra sugar).
On days Mum works, carry extra fruit and peanuts in a bag if I get hungry before lunch. Eat until satisfied, not full.
I mean, come on, why else do you think Gavin Lutz brings in goldfish, eats it during Calculus class, and is skinny?
Because it's his breakfast.
I need to make time for myself and to do the things I love.
I was once like this...the girl with motivation dreams, fire, and drive.
Where did she go? Will she ever come back?
I really need her. After all...it's how I detached to manifest my relationship.
