I allowed myself to sleep in.
Dance team tryouts are today at 7 PM, the time when I've trained my body to get sleepy. By sleeping in, I feel like my sleepiness kick-in will be snoozed until after the tryouts. One cannot dance when they're tired.
I miss my quiet 2-3 hours.
Usually, things start getting crazy around 7:00 or 8:00, the time when everyone in my household wakes up. I like to take advantage of every moment of quiet and me time that I can get.
Eating with family members is no fun, because, well...that's where all of the body shaming occurs...at the family tables. That's why part of me didn't feel guilty for eating a slice of that triple chocolate deluxe cake last night. However, part of me does feel guilty as it did a number on my stomach.
Maybe I am lactose intolerant.
Daily Dose of Happiness
Something soft and light that made the best happiness today:
Teddy bear
I came home and went to bed late due to dance team tryouts, so getting into bed and hugging my teddy bear to sleep was the best feeling ever.
A moment's glance that made the best happiness today:
Performing my solo during dance team tryouts.
Even though I forgot it, improved, and performed quite badly, I'm glad I did it. I performed to a song and style that I loved, made great facials, was intimidating, and had fun out there.
Man, what a day.
My dance team tryout went HORRIBLE. I had a panic attack in the morning and was shaking violently during the entire session. I hope the judges, coach, or anyone there didn't notice.
I really wanted to make the team, but at the same time, I'm okay and not okay if I don't.
I'm okay with the idea of not making the team, because I'll have more time for drama club, but at the same time, I don't want Ana yelling about me on how I wasted her and Patrick's time.
I have a feeling that I will make the team. I won't jinx it, but I'll hope for the best.
I kind of/sort of forgot that tomorrow and Friday, I would be a temporary in-person student due to KPREP/State testing. Welp, it looks like I'll be operating on five hours of sleep.
It's currently midnight. I'm tired AF and have no idea what else to say so...goodnight.
