I'm just SO SICK AND TIRED of being in this state. Attempting to get back on track, being motivated for under a day, and then returning to my old habits. I'm so scared. Am I doomed for the rest of the school year? Will I ever return to be the kid with a fire inside and a passion to pursue his dreams? Confident with my body and proudly standing in front of my crush? I need to be more disciplined. It's not impossible. I was disciplined before...and I still am. I just need to find it again. Discipline is still inside of me. I just need to ignite it. This is the heaviest I've been...I need to lose and fast. My forgetful ass is always forgetting the ACV in the mornings and I will be setting a reminder for it here in a moment...Okay, it's been done. I will take control of my life. I will get back on track. Sure, the scale may start tipping, but I can bring it back to its evened-out state. Universe, PLEASE...rid of all this fat and toxic body image of me for ALL OF ETERNITY! Please!!!!!
