Today is Brandon's birthday! Every year, make sure you wish him well and make him feel special. If not, there will be consequences from Ana. However, his birthday is irrelevant to the topic I'm getting into today.
Today's topic is probably one of the most important things you will learn from me...besides learning how to survive Ana and the rest of my former family...
Fake Friends and Fake Partners
Be wise when choosing to whom you commit your time and energy to, because it's not always worth putting on someone, and you may not realise it until it's too late. The day before I was due to leave for my New York for Education trip, I had received a DM from someone claiming to be a cousin of my online best friend, Kourtney. Her "cousin" (reasons for quotations later on) notified me that she had committed suicide the Friday before after visiting her ex and current friend/crush, Vie. Of course, I was beyond devastated. For months, I had gone through so many panic attacks, post-traumatic stresses, meltdowns, and thoughts of how I could've salvaged her life and interrupted every little thing I did. I felt like absolute shit about myself. I felt that I had failed as a friend to stay by her side no matter what. Be more readily available to her. Sure, academics and making a name for myself are important, but I shouldn't have to give up good relations with my friends as a result. It's all about balance. This death made me start a "sorternity" (sorority and fraternity combined) with Kourtney's friends that I was able to reach out to so that we could all "grieve" together. This is where I reconnected with my ex-boyfriend, Jaiden (we met on Roblox last September and dated for two months before I found out he cheated on me...his loss). We both agreed to forgive each other and forget our pasts. We became good acquaintances and our sorterity group took off...up until last weekend. I had already written, cast people, and was set to film a tribute movie to Kourtney for January, and we were all excited, however, my ex told me she wasn't actually dead. As soon as I was told that, the voice in the back of my mind was "I told you so!" I knew that this "cousin" girl wasn't legit because...how was she able to gain access to Kourtney's phone, there's a passcode on it, and guess a complex Discord account password to get in? Most people have two-factor authentication. All was done by the works of a "hacker". That's one messed-up hacker. Most hackers are typically there to take possession of valuable status on someone's account, not lie about someone's death. Also, why did the hacker type eerily similar to Kourtney? Everyone has a distinct writing style, even hackers. I can recognise Kourtney's language from anywhere. NO ONE can fill me. My ex even admits to me that he lied and that this was "only one of his many lies" (no surprise there). They were both in on it. If they didn't want to be my friend anymore, they could've just told me straight from the get-go instead of going through all this trouble faking a death. All that time spent could have gone towards something more productive, like just telling me "Hey, we no longer want to associate with you". It wouldn't hurt me at all. I'm not as sensitive as people think I am. At the end of the day, everyone's replaceable. Why else do you think I ran away on my 18th birthday? Anyways, after talking with my school's CCR (College & Career Readiness) coach, Mrs Barton, we both concluded to just tell them off and block them from our lives, and that's what I did. I pretty much told Jaiden (Kourtney blocked me after saying she "committed suicide" when I tried to get her "cousin" to join our grieving group) to also screenshot and send this message to Kourtney, and state all the evidence I found that it was them behind it the whole time and that they should've told me that they no longer wanted to associate with me instead of faking her death. I explained to them the "grieving" I went through and how I felt that what they did wasn't cool at all. I told Jaiden to go back to his side bitches and for Kourtney to go back to her naughty friends, and for both of them to rot in hell. If you couldn't already tell, not everyone is worth having in your life. Make people prove themselves to be worthy of being on your side. Being called your friend or your partner. Those titles cannot be taken lightly. If real, it'll be natural for them to prove loyalty. If not... CUT THEM ALL OFF!
