Create A Divine Move

Chapter 11- "Are we out of the woods yet?"

A/n TW for this chapter (after they are eating if you need to skip she has a panic attack)

Also I added Wes, Mason and Dean's aesthetics to the character chapter.

A few days have passed since Tyler asked me to be his girlfriend. When he did, I completely froze up out of pure shock. He took that as a no and that I wasn't ready but I told him that I needed some time to think about it and he reasured me, telling me that I didn't need to give him an answer straight away.

Honestly, I really want to be his girlfriend, I've wanted to for a while but it's just really, really soon and it's really hard for me to come to a decision on the spot, especially since I'm an overthinker.

I don't do well under pressure and I'm not impulsive at all. I always have to think out big decisions before I make them, sometimes even small ones. I'm the type of person that anticipates what someone's going to do, what someone going to say merely because I overthink everything. But this caught me off guard. I never once thought my feelings for Tyler would be reciprocated let alone him asking me to be his girlfriend so when he did, I had to take a step back to think. It wasn't anything he's done, he's been nothing but kind to me and I have no reason to say no yet I still hesitate.

I know this decision doesn't involve Jackson but I can't help but feel how this will affect him. A boyfriend would take up a lot of my time and thus would mean leaving Jack out more and I know that will upset him. It would give me less time to do the things I want and is an overall big responsibility.

On the other hand, I really, really like him and I really want this. I've never been in a relationship before and I long for someone who really cares about me. I want to be with someone. I want to be with Tyler. I've wanted to be with him for as long as I can remember.

I hate making decisions.

I'm leaning towards yes but I'm going to take the week that we have off to contemplate what I'm going to do. I don't want to make a rash decision.

It's Wednesday and Tara, Cassie, Quinn and I are gathered in Marley and Dean's house. We are waiting to go on a camping trip that I regret saying yes to.

I tried to get out of it at the last minute but Tara convinced me that it would be fun. Tara. Yes, her, the girl who hates the outdoors. I'm still unsure how I agreed to either of those instances but here we are ready to go on the trip.

When Marley and Dean's dad agreed to the additional people (us) that Marley invited on the trip he hired a seven seater car that just fits us all in.

We all pile into the car. Dean in the front with his dad, Marley and Tara in the middle two seats and me, Quinn and Cassie in the back. I like this arrangement because Cassie begins reading her book and Quinn starts listening to her music with her headphones on, leaving me time to mull over what the hell I'm gonna do.

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We follow the road through the trees, the gravel crunching under the cars tires, to a small empty parking lot, that only has room for about six cars. We are surrounded by woodland, the large trees towering over us and the birds chirping in the near distance. When we get out of the car, we don't walk too far to our spot which seems to be near a small cabin. "This is where we set up our tents." Craig, Marley and Dean's dad tells us when we arrive at the cabin.

Marley mentioned a cabin when she was telling us about the trip. She said that they basically use it to go to the bathroom and to cook food so they have a lesser chance of attracting wildlife.

The cabin looks old, like no one lives in it or has done for a while, which I guess is kind of true. We take the bags, excluding the tents inside the cabin. The cabin is decorated in an old-fashioned style, things like a deer head (that I'm hoping is fake) and old paintings line the maroon walls.