wait// joshler

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i don't understand.

i don't understand how dad would be happy if mom died. i know, occasionally she makes our life a living hell. but i don't want her dead. she causes me the most pain... but i still love her.

how could he say that?

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since i am no longer allowed on school grounds for a week, i lay around the house. luckily mom has these 'cancer classes', as she calls them. where they give her suggestions on how to better live her life given her 'touch of cancer'. and then she has to go do chemotherapy for the latter of the week. so she'll be gone all while i'm home alone. 

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i do the dishes, and the laundry to occupy myself today but mostly, i'm sitting on the back porch and closing my eyes. listening to the calming sounds of the air.

then, i hear screaming and i look toward the noise. a next door neighbor that i never really paid attention to. 

he has brown hair, and muscles. he's wearing a tshirt with a band i can't quite make out. i can't remember why i know him. seeing as how i don't know much of anyone. 

"GO GET THE BALL," the little boy playing with him shouts.

"YEAH YEAH I GOT IT JORDAN," he replies, his voice is bringing me down. and then i realize.

he's joshua dun.

the one who got me suspended. 

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i start to pace around the living room. i'm next door neighbors with the asshole? how have i never realized. jesus i really am a recluse. in order to never bump into him ever again i can just. never leave my house.

"why are you pacing like that?"

i jump out of my skin. 

"n-noreason. nothing," i reply quickly.

"liar," mom replies.

"no, what are you doing here?"

"i'm not gonna answer that until you tell me why you're pacing and what you're covering up with a lie."

"i..."

"tyler joseph."

"this kid.. he's the one that got me suspended he-."

"you got own yourself suspended."

"but i-."

"if you're gonna lie with that. then just shut the hell up."

she wheels past me and i feel sick.

"w-why did you come back home?" i ask, "you haven't even been gone but a few hours."

she stops and looks at me, "i don't trust you home alone."

a/n: 

hello my favorite people 

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