wait// joshler

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i am.. sobbing. dad pulls me away from her body with all the strength he has. my nails are in his skin and i know i'm hurting him but i can't pull myself away from her. i don't want her dead. i shouldn't have just sat there, holding her hand. 

i scream for her, wiping the tears off my face. i push myself against dad, pushing my weight so he'll let me go. his grip just tightens until he can pull me out of her room. 

he pulls me into his chest as i sob.

"i don't want her dead," i whisper.

-

the air in the trailer is.. drowsy. i'm so tired. joshua has texted me a good eight times, he stopped right after midnight. i'm staring at the ceiling in the living room, but i can't sleep. there's a fan right to my left. dad's asleep on the recliner. he refuses to leave my side. 

there's a knock on the front door. i walk over to the door and open it. 

joshua's standing there, a smile across his face. 

"you're alive, thank god," he says.

"you.. thought i was dead?"

"it's been three days. no text, you haven't been at school. i was... worried."

"ah... thank you. that's... sweet."

"are you okay?"

"mhm," i reply quickly. 

"will you be at school tomorrow?"

"i don't think i will be..." i look over at dad sleeping soundly on the couch. "for a while."

"oh. well.. i do hope you come back."

"thank you."

"no problem."

"you know.. it's like one am?"

"i couldn't stop worrying. you left me on read until i stopped texting."

"im sorry.. i have a lot going on."

"you always have a lot going on. do you never get a break?"

"..not really. no."

"im sorry, tyler."

"don't worry about it."

"do you wanna hangout?"

"uhm."

"after i get out of school... of course."

"you might be too tired. since like i said it's one and you're awake, and then you have to wake up at eight and go through school."

"even if we just nap, we could still hangout."

i smile, "sure, that's sounds fun, i guess."

he smiles back, "see you soon then."

"see ya."

i see him basically run back to his house. taking the steps to my trailer two at a time, that way he's on the ground in no time. then he takes to sprinting and is crawling back through his window in no time. 

my phone goes off in my hand a few minutes later. 

joshua: g'night tyler

i smile at my phone as i lay back on the couch. 

tyler: g'night joshua

a/n: they're so cute 

i wanna put them in my pocket 

and kiss their foreheads