If I had met you in grey

Chapter 87

Tobias POV
I wake up early the next morning, but I'm not the only one. I sit up and see Tris's bed empty, but there's a paper on it.

Morning Four,

I knew you'd read this, when you wake up meet me in the chasm.

Love you.

Tris

I change quickly and quietly into black pants, black shirt with a hoodie, and my combat boots. I walk down the silent halls to the chasm, you can hear the roar of the water from a mile away. I spot tris in our normal spot, her knees brought up to her chest, and her arms resting on them.

"Hey." I say when I get closer to her. She turns and smiles, "Hey." She says. I sit next to her and place my hand on top of hers. "What's up?" I ask. "Yesterday, in my fear landscape, something new was there." She says. "It was you." She says. "Me?" I ask scared now.

"You died and I couldn't stop you." She says. "It sounds a little like mine." I tell her thinking my own fear of having to kill her or watch her die. "Yeah I guess it is." She says. You can tell from her voce and her facial expression that this is really bothering, and I can see why.

"Hey listen to me." I say and she turns to look at me again. "The fears we have, of each other, although bad and scary.. In a way they're good." She looks at me oddly,

"How so?" She asks. "It means we're afraid of loosing each other." I say and she smiles. "That's how much I love you." She whispers while a tear falls from her eye. "Loosing you, would be like loosing myself." I admit to her. She looks up into my eyes, "Tris, you helped me find myself." I tell her and another tear falls, but it's not from her eyes, its from mine.

"You saved me." I say. "You showed me things that I never thought I'd see." I say. Now we're both crying, but we're doing it together.

"I've never experienced love, and with you Tris.. I have." I say and she smashes her lips to mine.

Kissing Tris, it isn't about the movements, the feeling of us on each other or just a part of us touching. No, it's about the love we share, that we feel. The feeling of being together and thanking the lord everyday for having each other.

Tris is my miracle, my angel that saved me from the depths of hell in my own house. She knows how thankful I am for her, but she'll never know the extent of my love for her. I hardly know the extent, it's too surreal to explain it. All I know is that I wouldn't be able to live without her.