My silent mother Volume 1

Chapter Sixty Two First Therapy Session

February 12th

(Uru Schnee) So today I'm going to see Aunt Nora to start my new therapy sessions, Aunt Kelly walked me down to Aunt Nora's office and once we had arrived outside her door I looked at the doorknob very hesitantly and Aunt Kelly said it's alright sweetie I will be right behind you and so I then placed my unbroken left hand on the doorknob with a bit of confidence and then I turned the knob with my left hand before I entered the office. 

Once we had entered the office Aunt Kelly walked up to the reception desk and she then signed me in and then she walked over to where I was sitting and she then started to fill out the first time patient paperwork, I answered every question that Aunt Kelly asked me and after a few minutes she had finished the paperwork and she then walked up to the reception desk and she then gave the receptionist back the paperwork before she walked back to her seat. 

I said I'm quite nervous Aunt Kelly and Aunt Kelly said don't be nervous hun, You know Aunt Nora very well and I said yes but that's outside of school Aunt Kelly, Aunt Kelly then wrapped an arm around me and she said you won't be alone during your therapy session hon I will be with you while you meet with Dr. Nora. 

After a few more minutes I heard Aunt Nora's voice call out Uru Schnee and I then stood up hesitantly and I then walked towards the opened door with Aunt Kelly following closely behind me, Once I reached the door I was pulled into a bone crushing hug from Aunt Nora and I said I can't breath Dr. Nora and Aunt Nora then said with chuckle sorry sweetie, Aunt Nora then released me from her embrace and then she gave Aunt Kelly a quick hug and then she said let's go to my office and we both then followed Aunt Nora to her private office. 

Once we had reached Aunt Nora's office Aunt Kelly to a seat near Aunt Nora's desk while I laid down on the couch while Aunt Nora gathered her notepad and then she said alright sweetie how have you been? and I replied I've been better Dr. Nora said with a chuckle when you're inside my office you don't need to call me Dr. Nora sweetie. 

Aunt Nora then started to ask the serious questions and the first question she asked was Uru do you ever feel like that you would be better off dead? and I said no Aunt Nora and then Aunt Nora asked do you ever feel so depressed that you let any dark thoughts cloud your judgement? And I said no I don't Aunt Nora, and then Aunt Nora then asked the question that I dreaded the most Do you ever think of killing/hurting yourself and or others dear? I said while trying to remain calm no I don't and Aunt Nora lowered her glasses and she said I could sense that you were hesitant about answering the last question sweetie. 

Aunt Nora then said While you're in here with me you are safe to tell me how you really feel sweetie, Aunt Nora then asked the question again and I started sobbing and I said yes I have though about hurting myself but I can't help it the voices inside my head keep getting louder and louder and I don't know what to do. 

Aunt Kelly quickly walked over to me and she then pulled me into her embrace and I could see through my tears that she was on the verge of tears while Aunt Nora was crying and after a few seconds of silence Aunt Kelly asked in whisper Why didn't you tell Summer or I or even a teacher that you were feeling this way hun? I said in a whisper I really don't know. 

I then said as I attempted to stand up I'm sorry and I would have ran to the door had Aunt Kelly hadn't placed her hands on my shoulders and she said You don't have fight this alone anymore sweetie, Like I promised you when you were a little girl that I would always try to protect and love you. 

I'm sad that you didn't trust any of your teachers or your parents or even both pairs of your grandparents with this revelation but I'm also glad that you've told us what has been bothering you. 

Aunt Kelly then said I have also noticed that you haven't been eating consistently or getting your full nine hours of sleep during the night hun, I said I was hoping that you wouldn't notice that Aunt Kelly and Aunt Kelly then said with a laugh Hun I wasn't born yesterday and besides a true huntress is always aware of what goes on around herself. 

Aunt Nora then asked me a couple more questions until it was time for the end of our first session, and Aunt Nora wrote me out my next ten appointments on a pad of paper and she then handed it to me and then it was time to leave but before leaving Aunt Kelly pulled out her credit car and she paid for my therapy session and then she walked with me back to the dorm.