Living with the trouble maker

Chapter 32 (Shane ) The mistletoe plan

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve , since Christmas break , I been hanging at Samantha's she just calls and says she is hungry and then she wants to talks about the baby I brang up a doctor's name she said she wants to go to a doctor she knows but he has no availability until after the new year .
   Now I walk in and see Samatha who had called me for a Milkshake even though I left her less than a hour ago .

            " Mm" she says

         " Here "  I hand  her a box
  " Oh a gift" she squeals and sits her milkshake down and grabs the box.

    She opens and pulls out all the gifts that is in the box .

                   " A baby blanket ?" She questions
       " Yes and a rattler and sleeper." I say

She sits the box down roughly.

               " Is everything ok " I ask her

              " yea I just thought you had bought me a gift " she admits

I didn't  even think of getting her a gift . I don't want to lead her on .
    We are having a baby but we are not together.

                 " I am the mother of your unborn child " she mocks me

        " Samantha I don't think it is a good ideal to get mushy I have told you that I will be here for the baby and you but I am only paying your bills . We are never going to be together " I tell her

She cries . I don't want to make her upset .

                  " I am sorry please don't cry " I beg her

           " it is fine but let me ask you . Why didn't you just wait until tomorrow or Christmas to actually give me the baby's gift ." She asks me

             " I don't know " I lie

         " is it because you are ashamed of me , " she asks

           " I am not ashamed but I don't want my family to think you are my girlfriend " I tell her

          " I was" she says quickly

   I never considered her as my girlfriend , but I don't tell her that .

            " I am not ready for them to know about the baby " I say

         " you do have a place to eat right " I ask

         " Yea with my family " she answers

  
After I left Samantha's I went to Tim's house where there is a party .
I just want to drink and forget what my life has become.
I have been avoiding Kendall all of Christmas break , I just want to be with her . But I don't want to bring her down with me and all of my mistakes .

The music is great in here , maybe I will hook up with a Radom girl tonight . It not like it would be a relationship or with anyone I really care about . See if I would have gotten with Kendall it would have been to hard because I do care about her . And I really think with her I would want a relationship. I have never wanted a relationship before but if there is any girl I could see me having a relationship with then it is Kendall meddler , and I am sure if I did have one with Kendall I would be horrible at it

I drink my beer and look out where there is people are dancing, then I spot her Kendall she has on a sweater dress. She dancing she looks so carefree . She deserves it . If we was to be together it would hurt her and mess her up .
I see she is dancing with her friends and that jerk Derek is beside her and he is twirling her and laughing .
I feel so much anger toward him I know he is just buying his time .