This past week has been a hard one .
I finally went back to school .
I got there late just because I didn't want to see Kendall at breakfast or ask her to ride to school but I also didn't want to not ask her to ride to school .
When I first seen her . She is standing by her locker and of course Derek is standing beside her .
When he sees me he puts his arm around her and he whispers something in her ear .
I am sure he is being all protective thinking I would try to get her back .
I would if I thought she would ,I actually did but she wouldn't .
But I may ask her again I know we have something something worth fighting for .
Clyde and Brayden both are being super nice .
Which is nice but it is hard just knowing that they know I am hurting . I guess the whole school may suspect that I am hurting but my friends know it .
I wouldn't t even go around the stripper when I was with Kendall talk about being whipped .
No I was not whipped I was in love .
And I have been thinking before I didn't believe in love but now I know it is real , it just may not last .
Or maybe the person you love don't love you back .
But love does exist .
But it can suck .
As me and Brayden walk to class I feel someone tug at my arm .
" hey " Hattie says
" Hi " I answer
Brayden eyes her down .
It didn't work out with the girl he liked before but I do give him credit for going after what he wanted.
" I heard about the break up I just wanted to let you know I am here for you " she tells me and hugs me .
But she is pressing her boobs on me she has to know what she is doing ..
I back away quickly .
Wow I feel like I am cheating on Kendall and we are not together
" If you ever want to talk " Hattie tells me
" Thank you and I will " I tell her
As we walk away
Brayden says
" Dude you know she was hitting you "
" Yes I know " I say and I do know she was.
" I know it is hard because of Kendall but you don't have to worry about hooking up many girls just about would ." He tells me
I know he is right but I don't want just any girl I want Kendall .
I look back at her she is in a small crop top that says Rolling Stones on it and just some shorts shorts .
She look so like California.
I am glad that Derek is not around she is with Christina.
" Brayden I am sure eventually I will hook up again but right now I just want to just be " I say
He nods
Hattie texted me 3 times and. We are in school so wow
She just said she was thinking about me in one text
The other one she said I meant If you ever want to to talk I am here . And the last one she said what you doing .
I don't text her back .
She seems very desperate to me . I understand I am newly single and really lots of girls will probably try to hook up with me but she is trying hard .
At lunch Clyde and Brayden are joking .
I keep looking over at Kendall
" Man you have to stop " Clyde demands
I know he is right .
I knew I was looking her. But I didn't think it was obvious.
" I know " is all I can say
Brayden gives me a sympathetic smile
" You need to hook up or get laid " Clyde says and sips on his water
" There is a party tonight Tim is throwing it he said we could come " Brayden informs
" That is perfect" Clyde says
I don't think I am ready but I guess I can go and just see what happens .
It couldn't be wrost as I feel .
Kendall and Derek are sitting right by each other but they don't seem lovie dovie or nothing like that .
" Hey " I hear and I turn from staring at my ex girlfriend and her new boyfriend
It is Hattie .
" I texted you " she tells me
" Yea I seen but we are in school you know " I say
And it is a sorry Excuse but I use it anyway
"' I should have thought about that are you going to the party tonight " she asks
Before I can answer Clyde chimes in
" Yep we are "
Hattie smiles and walks away
" You should hit that I hear she is good in bed " Clyde claims
I don't care if she is or not she couldn't be no better than what I already had .
I stop dead in my tracks I see Kendall and Derek
He puts a piece of hair behind her ear
I can't look it will haunt me .
I run down the hall
.
" Hey wait up " I hear and. Stop it is Jessica
" Hey sis" I say
After I say it I am aware of how sad sounding my voice is
" you ok" she asks
" Been better" I admit
" I hate this. Is happening it really makes no sense " she states
" yes it dont I just keeping going over everything I'm my head it don't add up " I say
" The only thing I can figure is that she is scared or something so she is pushing me away " I tell her
" She don't seem happy I can't say she seems scared but she sad to me " Jessica says
" Yes she looks sad to me too " I say
And I know I should t be happy about it .
" no joke she just broke into tears while talking to me yesterday " Jessica tells me
" really " I ask
My sister nods
" what over " I ask
" you" she says so matter of factly
" she seemed really upset you know . I found her when I went to our house from school that is when she broke up with me it just don't make sense." I say
" She is not happy and that is all I know for sure " Jesica says
And I agree.
I want her to be happy but I want her to be with me but I still think of her and everything about her over and over again .
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Living with the trouble maker
RomanceKendall Meddler moves in with ,her mothers old Collage friend The Pitts who has a son and the closer she gets to Shane Pitts the hard everything gets .
