Living with the trouble maker

Chapter 52 (Kendall) The not so sweet heart dance

It has been a week and me and Shane have I guess been avoiding each other .
It is just to hard .
He told me to chose Derek after all this .
Could he really want me to chose Derek ?

Are was he getting just mad ?

I am tried of thinking about it .

Me and Derek are not as close in fact I have not told him I choose him .
Which I am not sure I have . But I did agree to go to the sweetheart dance

But honestly I don't know I might just break up with him . I am not happy I may even go as far to say I am miserable.

I am waiting for him to come and get me .

We are riding in a limo with Jesica and Bo ,   Bo is already here and so is the limo.
My
Mind goes to maybe  he is playing some trick on me and he is standing me up , like I have seen in some movies .

     Shane walks in the room .
It is the same feeling every time more than butterflies it is something I can not explain.
      He has on a hoddie . Just a hoddie and he makes me feel this way .

      " Are you not going to the Dance ?" I ask
Without even thinking

      " No I think the sweet heart dance is lame ." He answers

           " So what bimbo you have coming over"Jesica asks him
I feel like I can't breath
            " I don't have any " he claims
I let  out a big breath .

             I know he can still be lying but I chose to believe he is telling the truth .

      Derek is finally here

As I leave I see sadness in Shane's eyes

I have on a pink dress with hearts all over it .

             " Can we dance ?" Derek asks

We do .
I feel nothing
Like when I was dancing  with Shane it was more passion and heat , ok we was dirty dance it was hot dirty dancing  dirty dancing. So maybe that is why me and. Shane had more heat then me Derek

        " I am so glad you came here with me tonight " he says

           Is he kidding his self .
This is not right .

        It is more than the strip  club or is dirty dancing with other people.

I am looking all around for Shane but I know he ain't coming here .

I have it so bad for Shane. And he may not want me no more but  I can't be with Derek .
Things are off .
So I have to break up with him .

After the slow dance I turn to walk away.
He gently pulls me back by grabbing my hand .

" Kendall" he whispers

" Derek I am going to sit with Christina " I tell him

" Ok can I bring some punch " he asks me
I just shake my head

I sit down next to a Christina .

" You seem down like what is going on " she says to me

" nothing really " I lie
I know I am going to have to break up with him .

My phone dings .

[I hope you are enjoying your dance]
I read the text from Shane

Aww that is sweet . But why ?

I don't know what to reply , I just stare at the words .

[ I just don't get it you say you can't be around all my games but Derek played to get to kiss you yet you are there with him ] I read the text

Ok so maybe that was not just a sweet text.Shane has a point , Maybe Derek was not as hurtful to people but he still did it .

But he is right . Derek trick me to kiss him never bothered me .

But some of the things Shane did was cruel
I did say I didn't know if I could around those games but I am about to be broken up from Derek and not because how he played me but because this ain't right and I feel it .

[ I am miserable] I text

Maybe I shouldn't behave not texted it is how I feel .

[What do you mean ] the text come back

[ I don't know ] I send

"[ I am going to try to enjoy the rest of the dance ] I tell him in my text

I see the bubbles then they disappear .

He is trying to think of something to say

Finally he texts

[ I know you are enjoying yourself with lover boy just pretend like the things we did never happen that is fine but I know you will never forget you just act like it didn't mean nothing but on some level it did or other wise you wouldn't keep coming back you know things is not right Kendall you want me I know you do ]

His words are straight to the point
I hate he thinks I act like I don't care I do care I care so much .

But he does go about things the wrong way . And I want no part in his schemes.

And besides he don't want me and when I break up with Derek he probably really won't want. Me

The night is winding down .

I still don't know how I am going to do it .

Derek walks up and puts his arm around me .

I don't want him to but I don't want to embarrass him in front of his friends .

" You want to take a walk " he asks me

As we walk out I feel a breeze that feels good .

" Happy Valentines " he tells me and tries to hands me box

" I can't accept it " I say
I feel really nervous.

" Ok Kendall this is enough I want to move past this yes I went to a strip club and yes I did dirty dance which you did too .
But you know we never said we was serious so let's have that conversation." He says loudly

" What " I say

" I want to be with you and I won't be with no one else and I don't want you to be with no one else " he tells me

For just a second I realize I like hearing those words but I want to hear them from Shane .

" Derek" I whisper

" I messed up but I didn't realize I was crossing a line but I know now those things are off limits " he says and there is desperation in his voice

" It is not just the dancing dirty or the strip club I don't like those things , but it is more how I don't feel how I should " I say

He just looks at me

" I think we should Break up " I say
He still is just looking at me

"ok " he finally says