Living with the trouble maker

Chapter 87 ( Kendall) Heartache

I left the house early . I didn't want to see Shane .
I still can't believe I had to break up with him .
But I had to . I can't let him go to jail not when there is something I can do to help him .
I know he hates me . I don't like myself too much right now .

He looked so hurt .
And he was having some kind of thing Xander called it a panic attack .
I hated seeing Shane like that and knowing I was the cause really hurts.
I just grabbed a banana .
I didn't want to cook and take a chance on Shane walking down

           " Hey their  girlfriend " Derek says and he walks up next me and puts his slim arm around me .
I push his arm off hard .

          " Hey is that some way to treat your boyfriend " he asks

I stop and. Turn around

         " you are not my boyfriend " I snap

        " I kind of am unless you want your ex boyfriend to go to jail " he exclaims

          " I broke up with him but me being with you that is just crazy why do you want to be with me when I clearly don't want to be "  I ask

        " We just need another chance . We can pretend until Hattie gets him locked down and trust me she will " he states

I feel like throwing up , I didn't realize how pervert Derek is .

        He talked about Hattie being great in bed .
He is sick

                  " Whatever. we are not doing anything" I say firmly

       " we are not going to sleep together but we will make out " he tells me

        " I dont want to " I complain

         " real couples make out " he complains

     " well we ain't real " I say back

     He gives me. Are you kidding look .

            " I will kiss but not a full make out session " I say
He gives me a puppy dog face .

" Whatever I want Pitts to know about us today " he says in a harsh voice

" You know Derek my friends is never going to believe I am moved on so quickly " I state

" Well  I remember you moving on pretty quickly from me to Shane " he tells me

" That because our relationship was not right and mine and Shane is " I say
He has another hurt look on his face I can't not feel bad from him when he is keeping me from Shane .

Later at lunch I am walking in  with Jessica .

"So I need to tell you something " I say

" What's up " she says

" me and Shane broke up " I state
She looks surprised but she says

" I hate that y'all seemed in love "
I just start to cry .
I can't take no more I held it in all day .

" It is ok sweetie I am sure y'all will find your way back to each other " she tells me and pats me on my back

" I don't know " I tell
How can maybe if Derek lose interest in me or if Hattie lose interest in Shane

" My brother said he was not going to school today so this is why ". She asks

" Yes and Jessica you need to be there for him he needs you " I tell her

" I will but I am here for you as well I can't be in the middle of y'all drama " she tells me
I give her a half smile

I dry my eyes and walk in to the cafeteria.

We sit down and Derek pulls me close .

Jesica drops her fork

I push him off of me .

" It is too soon Derek " I whispers

" What is going on here " Jessica asks us while everyone else watches us

Jessica looks between me and Derek .

" Didn't Kendall tell  you the good news " Derek says

" We got back togather " he adds

" This is why y'all broke up "she asks me

I nod .
But my tears fill up .

" I am going to sit with Bo "she says

Everyone else starts talking in a conversation.
But I don't and I can tell Blair and Christina keep looking at me

I am starting to walk to home from school when Blair and Christina walk up beside me

" we are worried about you " Blair says

" Thank you but I am fine " I lie

" you don't seem happy Kendall " Christina says
She right I am not. I want Shane , I only want him .
" You did seem happy with Shane " Blair says with sympathy

She is right I was

" Me and Shane is to different that is all this is " I tell my concerned friends

When I walk in as I am about to go up the stairs I see Shane sitting on a chair .

I don't know should I talk to him , I do care how he is doing . We do live In The same house .

" How are you " I finally build up the nerve to ask

" Considering you broke my heart and stomp on it and now it is In A million and one pieces I am just peachy "he says and he stands up

By his choice in words he reminds me of his sister .

" Iii" I stutter
He is leaning against the counter and. He is bouncing a bit

" I hate what this is doing to us " I say out loud
He give me a strange look

" Kendall you are the one who is doing This to us " he says loudly

I know he is right but what he don't know is I am being black mailed

I wonder if I told him I was being blacked mailed and I didn't want to be broken up if that could work .

But probably not because he would not stop until he found out who and why and Derek would be his first suspect.

"This is just how it has to be " I say

" I hate you missed school I am not worth being sad over " I tell him

He walks close to me .

" I love you Kendall you broke up with me of course I am sad but it is ok we can forget it happened let's get back together I know you want to " he tells me

He is right I do .
" I can't" I say and run up the stairs

I throw myself on the bed and cry until I have no more tears right now . I look at the camera in my phone just as I expected my eyes are swelled .