Living with the trouble maker

Chapter 66 ( Kendall) Beginning of the end

When we got home last night he gave me a small kiss good night but nothing more Only words was good night .
I don't get why he was so upset yes it could have been bad  and we should have been thinking clearer but the end result was it was fine .
I tossed and turned all night Trying to understand why he was so mad I figured maybe it had so to do with the lie Samantha told him. He did think he was going to be a father . And I know he don't want that right now I don't either , but he still carried on bad .

I am ready for mass which he had said early yesterday he wanted to go .

I knock on his room door .

No answer.

I call him
No answer

He can't be mad at me this is no part my fault .

I get a text

" [ hey sorry I know we made plans but I can't go to church I am not feeling very good you go ahead I am just gonna stay in and sleep all day and tonight too]I read from Shane

I don't want to be to judgmental but I think Shane is blowing me off

I just text him back
[ ok]
I don't want to be too pushy .
The next morning I expect to see him down stairs at breakfast but I don't .
He calls me .
I answer he tells me he don't feel good still and he is not going to school .

I walk to school by myself I leave before Jessica I know she don't want to be around me so I just left with out talking to her .
As I am putting my backpack up Jessica walks up to her locker and says to me

" What is going on with you and my brother "
" Nothing why" I ask

" I can tell it is something " she says
"He said he is not feeling good " I say and it is the truth but I don't believe it myself

" Oh this is the beginning of the end " she says and walks away

I hate to admit it but it does feel like the beginning of the end .

After school I start to walk home when this nice car pulls up

" can I give you a lift ?" I hear it is Arron

" No thank you I am not far from here " I tell him

" I don't mind you can keep me company " he begs

But I know if Shane seen me get out of Arron's Porsche he would be mad and right now I just want my boyfriend back to normal.

" I appreciate it but I need the walk thank you " I tell him and walk on

Shane don't come to dinner .
His mother Mentions she fixed him soup and she said he was not feeling well but I still think this is not what it is about .

I knock on his door and to my surprise he opens it .

" How are you feeling " I ask
And walk in

" I am ok" he answers

I know this is not right .
It does feel like the beginning of the end and if I want it not to be then I have to really talk to him .

" I know your not really sick " I tell him

He sits in the edge of his bed .

He don't correct me .

" This is all my fault , it is my responsibility to make sure I have a f**king condom on. Instead I am so weak and so wrapped up in you that I couldn't even think of anything except except of how good it was feeling " he tells me

I am taking a back but I don't know what to say so I stay quite

" I don't see how this can work" he admits
He seems so sad
His eyes has tears in them .
He looks so cute .

I can't believe he said that
I can literally feel my heart break .

" You want to break up " I ask
I hold back the tears even though I know I won't be able to long .

" I don't want to but I don't see no other way if we stay together that happing again is a chance and I don't know " he says

" Shane if you want to break up that is fine but you are acting bad over this " I say and the 1 st tear escapes

" Are you just looking for a reason to break up " I ask and more tears following

" No this is the last thing I want well I don't want us to get pregnant then one of us hating each other but I don't want to break up but we have to " he says

" It makes no sense to me but ok have a good life " I say and leave

I go to my room I shut the door and lock it I slide down to the floor and cry .

It couldn't be what this is really about he just wanted out .

Everyone was right about him , about us .

So he don't want to be with me but he will probably be with some other girl ain't that the same thing .

It makes no sense he didn't look at any of those strippers and he turned them down and he turned down Maggie and Bobbie jo .

He made me feel like I was the only one . But he just wants out .

The next morning I finish my breakfast as he walks into the kitchen he grabs a apple and banana .

" I am headed to school " he tells to everyone and leaves

Jessica Looks at me .

I don't want to hear I told you so from Jessica but I guess I deserve it because she was right .

I give Shane a minute to get gone then I head out to walk to school .

" Hey wait up " Jessica says
and walks up beside me

" We are going to the same place we should walk together " she tells me

" I am only gonna ask one question , " she pauses
" Did y'all break up " she asks

" yes " I answer her

She puts her arm around me

" I know it don't feel like it but it is probably for the best ." She tells me

And she could be right I mean she was right about us not lasting and him breaking my heart .
But right now it don't feel like it how can it be for the best when I am hurting so much .

I eat my lunch like I did in the empty classroom which holds memories of me and Shane .

I get my stuff together I am so ready to go home .

" So we all have something we want to say "
I look up and it is Jessica and Blair and Christina .

" we are sorry for how we acted we would love to be your friends again" they say  the same time so I guess that they have rehearsed saying it .

I smile because for the past 2 days I have been a loner .

And Shane might have brought my friends into my life in the 1 st place and he is the reason they stoped messing with me , but now they are back . And I am so glad they are
And I do love them so I graciously accept.