I have been nervous all week thinking that Shane was going to tell Derek about our hook up .
I feel bad over it and I have thought about just confessing my own self to Derek , but I don't think I can .
I know that it is wrong to cheat and I was drunk but I knew what I was doing . I like Shane like I really really like Shane .
I still know what I did was wrong but it did feel right at the time I honestly did not think about Derek or his feelings I just was consumed by my own feelings my very strong feelings I have for Shane .
Me and Jesica been walking to school everyday but I still seen him in the hallway and he does eat super and breakfast but we don't talk .
He still handled me letting him down easy very good .
I am sure he was going to call it quits soon anyway .
He is probably just playing games. I hate that I feel this way for him .
" No it just the cutest dance ." Christina says
" Your the only one with a boyfriend so you will go " Blair tells me
" Hey me and Bo is on our way to that status " Jesica says
" But your not there yet " Christina tells her and does no no with her finger .
" Where are you not little sis " Shane says as I looks up
" Oh nothing" both Blair and Christina say at the same time making their crush on him noticeable
But he don't look at them .
He is looking right at me when he said it .
I wonder does all southern men want what they can't have .
" So are y'all
going to ride home with me ?" He asks
" No for this whole week I am tutoring " Jesica tells him
Yes she is good and school and popular it can happen.
" Well then just me and Kendall then " he says and he is staring at me .
" You drop us off first " Blair's says and bats her eyes
I hate seeing them flirt with him but I like that he don't appear to be interested .
" Ok but don't get used to it I usually need to get home quick so today is fine though " he says
We walk and they let me get in the front I don't know why .
He mostly just plays with the radio while the girls talk about the sweetheart dance .
I notice him looking over at me a few times he mostly look at my legs .
After both girls get dropped off he looks at me and says.
" Why didn't you talk much?"
" I don't know they are going on About a dance that I don't know nothing about " I half lie
I also didn't talk because I am still nervous around him and I just don't know if he would say something about what happened with us .
" Oh yea the dance named after you ."
He says
" what " my voice screeches
" Sweetheart" he explains
I laugh because it is cute sometimes he does call me that . And he looks so cute looking at me leaning his head sideways . And that smile that I love so much .
" Your the only one who calls me that " I say
" Good that means I am special"
He says and smiles
We pull up to his house .
" I would like to talk to you for a second " he says his voice sounds serious
" Umm what is it" I say
" So you and Derek are together " he asks
But I don't know what he would ask that because he knows.
" Darn I told her to come by later " he says
I don't know what he is talking about .
Then I see a blonde girl who is barely dressed and she is just standing in front of us .
Shane puts up his one finger tell her to wait a min.
" Kendall so you want to be with Derek right " he asks me
" Iii " I stutter
" If you are going to be with him still then I am going to be with Hattie " he tells me
What does that mean if I am going to be with Derek I am with Derek .
" Who" I ask
Just because I am not thinking straight.
" Her she is Hattie Veins" he tells me
He obviously already talk to this girl .
But is he saying if I am not with Derek then we could be together.
" I don't know what you are saying " I say
" You are with Derek " he says
" You know I am " I snap
" so you don't want to hook up with me " he asks
" you know we can't " I say
He nods and then says
" I will introduce you to Hattie." He says and gets out .
She seemed nice .
" so we are going for a early dinner tell my folks I won't be around ." He tells
Me
I walk in feeling sad and little mad . What was all that about I don't understand.
I start to feel down on myself . So I call my boyfriend.
" What you dong tonight " I ask
" rehearsal " he answers
" can you cancel " I ask
I hate to but I need him .
" I really shouldn't I want to be good " he tells me
" you will be good I know and you done rehearsal like everyday and night I just want to see and make out with my boyfriend." I tell him
" Ok I will come in a hour and be a little late for rehearsal." He tells me
After we been making out for a little while we hear someone walking up the walkway , it is Shane and Hattie they appear to be drunk by the way they are walking .
" Is that Hattie ?" Derek asks
" Yea they are a thing apparently " I say
" Oh ok I hear she is good in bed " he states
I feel my stomach turn.
Shane and Hattie walk to the back way that is where he sneaks girls out so I guess he walks them in that way too .
Derek goes to his rehearsal. I grab a bottle of water from the refrigerator and head up to my room .
As I am walking in
Shane waves and shuts his door.
Great now I have to think about them all night .
I look on my phone , after about 5 minutes of me flicking threw Instagram I hear very loud moaning .
Then I hear beating on the wall which I know what that is it is the Bed hitting the wall.
Tears actually falls from my eyes what is wrong with me .
I hear the girl say
"Oh Shane "
It feels like my heart is breaking .
He is having sex with her . And she supposedly really good at it .
And me and him can never be .
Even though I already knew that this still hurts .
It just feels wrong.
The beating gets louder and her Moaning has turned into screams. But I can tell she is enjoying herself .
I can't take anymore .
I leave out of my room. And I head to the gym to work out even though I am not in a yoga I don't care I can't go back in there to hear them . I know why I am crying and I know why I have to get away from hearing them it is because I have it bad for him .
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Living with the trouble maker
Lãng mạnKendall Meddler moves in with ,her mothers old Collage friend The Pitts who has a son and the closer she gets to Shane Pitts the hard everything gets .
