Living with the trouble maker

Chapter 47( Kendall) Longing for Shane

I decided to stay with Derek he is a good guy and after what Shane did I just feel like being with him would be a mistake.
I mean I am still attracted to him . But part of me thinks he is using me to get back at Derek . And part of me also hates he would even think to what he did to Derek he could hurt his career before it even starts.
We are eating lunch and the mashed potatoes are no where as good as Linda's but I still eat them .  Derek is laughing and I am glad it is like the 1 st time in three days he was so upset about the play .

                " Hey everyone " I hear and look up it is Shane

He is leaning on the table and leaning toward me , I had to be on the edge.
I can smell him and it is a great smell . I can feel his breathe and believe it or not it feels great .

               " I am surprised that you are still with him " Shane says

    I can't believe he said that . I know my eyes  got big .

         " Shut the f**k up " Derek tells him

        " I just mean you were the laughing stock if I was Kendall I would be embarrassed " he says

And for a second I am relieved that he didn't say something about me and him .

                      " I don't know what happed. It was the ants " Derek says

         " Sure it is ok you got stage fright and you went a little crazy for a minute." Shane tells Derek

But Shane knows it was ants he is the one that put them there .
I would never tell that he did that . I don't want Shane to get In trouble .

          " Is the mashed potatoes as good as my mom's" he asks me

          " No " I simply answer

          " Shane why are you over here it is like you are tormenting Derek who cares if had ants in his pants it is over now " Jesica tells him and I am glad she did

After dinner I go out by the gazebo just to think , but honestly I shouldn't because I keep on seeing us making out right here . But that is everywhere the pool the nook even though it was more sweeter .

I still want him and. That is what is driving me crazy because I want to be with him even though Derek is a good boyfriend.

              " Was you really going to chose me" I hear Shane from behide me

I turn around his face looks wet and his eyes are red has he been crying .
I start to walk to him and hug him but I stop myself .

          " Shane lets not go there tonight . " I say to him
His perfect jaw is be highlighted by the moon .

       " Please it has been driving me crazy , was you going to chose me or did you just say it" he begs

           " I was going to chose you " I admit
He hits the pole
And screams
          " I had to f**k that up "

       " Oww" he yells right after and shakes his hand

I go to him and take his hand ,
I rub his nuckles .

                  " See it better already " he says
He is looking down on me .
" We should be together and like really together " he says
He couldn't mean it . But God I do wish he did and that we could be together.

           " Shane "I whisper
He leans down and kisses me .

His tongue invaded my mouth. We are both moving at a speed . He pulls back and kisses my neck and up and down arms . My hands is in his hair .I moan because It feels so good .
He then goes back to my lips and I open My mouth .