Living with the trouble maker

Chapter 58 ( Shane ) It is so good

Kendall acted crazy last night . She wouldn't sleep with me I thought we was on a good road .
I think she may be moody . I never seen her like that before I just seen how sweet she is and how much I am attracted to her .

I walk down and grab a banana. And a fiber bar .

" Girls you ready " I call out

Kendall looks at me with a surprise look on her face .
I know what she is thinking . Usally when we had a fight I don't take them to school the next morning .
But We really didn't fight

I think that she is scared of something but I don't know what .

" How did y'all sleep last night " I ask them

" What kind of question is that " Jesica says

" I am just making small talk " I answer her

" well " I ask
" I slept fine " Kendall says
But she said it quick and dry she didn't even look at me in the mirror like she use to .

What did I do wrong , I have to find out .

After lunch I see her I rush to her .

" Please tell me what the f**k did I do wrong " I ask her

Maybe I shouldn't have asked that right off .

But I need to know .

" Shane I can't get into this right now " she tells me and walks away

I have hurt her or something somehow.

I text her because I don't know what else to do

[ I don't understand why you are so mad at me ]

I wait for a response.
Finally 4. Minutes later

" Just stop ok " she says

I don't understand her at all .
Everything was going great .

Now I am at a party and it is a boring one , I am sipping on cup but not enough to get me drunk .

I see Kendall walk in and I sit up .

She sees me but she don't smile she don't even blink she just walks on .

               I don't know but I feel really bad .
Like sad .

         I text Xander to can he come and get me .
I don't want to see Kendall here tonight and boys falling over her .
And if she ever Hooked up with someone  it may kill me .

      I go outside for some fresh air .
Blair and my sister walk out .
They are falling over each other

      " didn't y'all just get here " I ask

       " We got into the champagne at my place " Blair says

So I know Kendall has too.

My phone dings a text

             It is Xander saying he will be here but it will take about a hour and a half because he went to mobile .

So I will have to stay here until then.

   I see Brayden sitting on the couch I go over there and talk to my friend.

        " So who you hooking up with tonight " he asks

        " Probably no one " I answer him

I feel her eyes on me and take big gulp of my drink .
She is still looking at me from across the room .

I make way to her she start to walk away I follow her . She is outside I catch up to her .

                   " Please just speaks to me " I beg
She turns around .

                " I just think we are too different and I am scared that if we continue I will end up really hurt " she tells me

Finally something real it is the truth . She is scared I knew it .
I walk closer  to her I put my hand on her beautiful face .
            " I would never hurt you " I say and mean it

         " But that ain't true " she claims

      " How tell me how I hurt you " I yell

       " It is so much that adds up , you wanted me to go in the back way , you don't want anyone to know . You don't want to really be with me " she shouts

        " I thought you didn't want my sister to know that why I said we could go up the back way I never thought of you as one of my tramps as you put it " I tell her

She takes a deep breath .
       " If you want  to tell everyone we can tell them now , yes it would be different but I think I can handle I know I can handle better than I can handle you hating me " I shout

Her expression changes now she seems like her sweet self .

              " How can I prove that I want to be with you I have from basically the begin" I ask

            " I don't know there is just signs that you really don't you have slept with that big boob girl " she says

        " Because I thought I couldn't be with you , that is when you turned away from me . I shout

        " you are the one that said we can never be , so now that we have it makes me think it is just a game " she screams

         " I only said that to protect you " I tell her

       "Protect me from what " she asks in a loud voice
I look down I am ashamed  then I look up
         " From me " I admit

       " what do you mean " she asks

        " Ok that night that I said that I had to because just found out I got Samantha pregnant " I tell her calmly

I see her eyes flash fear , I don't want her to think less for me even for a second.

          " She lied to me she was not even pregnant , but I wanted to do the right thing I felt like I would bring you down so I let you go but if that had not happened trust me I would never had  because I wanted to be with you so much even then and it has just got stronger , but I thought I was doing right for you ." I tell her

         " So you always wanted me " she asks me

         " Since the second you walked back into my life maybe even before then " I say truthfully

She rushes to me and kisses me .

We make out outside for a while we don't even think about anyone else seeing .

Xander picks us .  We get home and walk in the front door .
       When we get upstairs.
        " come over " I beg

             " I mean I am not going to stay over no more because it is too risky that your parents might walk in" she tells me

        " Ok just for a little bit "
I say
           " ok. But we can only kiss" she tells me

       " What now " I say
       " My period came this morning " she stated

      " oh ok I get it , I am good with making out " I tell her

And that is what we doing and like every other time it is so good .
It is so good that I don't want to leave .
I get more satisfaction from kissing her then I ever had with sleeping with any other girl .
When I actually think about it scares me .
But I will not let it make me mess up I want her too much and I will just try my best to make this work .