In love with my bestfriend(s)

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It was 9pm I was in my pyjamas. Just a top with a jogging.
I heard  a nock on the door.
I look through the glass and it was emily.
"I haven't ordered food this time if that's what you came for" I say laughing.
Emily was wearing a similar outfit to mine. She wore a stripped jogging with a white top, looks like she quickly put on a vest. I could see her nipples pocking through her top. It made me realise mine are probably too.

I quickly stop looking at her body as I let her in. How does she look so sexy in a pyjama?
I set down on the bed and she got next to me.
"What's up, want to watch another movie?" I ask her.
I saw a more serious look on her face.
"Is everything okay?"
She looks down for a second.
" on your first day, on the jet. You profiled me and said I don't know who I am yet? Or atleast not fully"
I look at her.
"Ow em I didn't mean-" I wanted to apologise but she cut me off.

"No don't apologise. But you weren't completely right. I do know who I am. I just don't know how to say"
Emily went on.
I lifted up her face and smiled at her.
I hade a feeling it was about being gay but I didn't want to assume so...

" you don't own anyone an explanation of who you are. But don't hide yourself. Don't be afraid to show them who you really are"
Emily takes my hand that was still on her jawline. She smiles at me and we look in eachothers eyes.
There was a silence. The whole world was gone again.

I just drown in her dark brown eyes.

She leans forward and we kiss.
I place my hand in her neck and the other one on her waist. She keeps both her hands on my jawline as she pushes me down.
She pulls away for air and we continued.
Her soft red lips compressed on mine.
The warmth I felt while her body crawls over mine.
The mattress starts to feel like clouds.
Emily moves one hand down to my waist.
Our bodies collided. When her soft and gentle lips all of a sudden pull away again. After getting air I wanted to kiss them again. But emily backed up.

I longed for her lips again, one kiss and I was addicted. The taste of her lip balm still remaind in my mouth.

"I'm sorry I shouldn't have kissed you"
Emily got up from the bed.
"No em, I liked it" I say with a smile. I grab her hand wanting to pull her in again. To feel her touch and warmth. Put she pulls her hand away aswell.

"I'm sorry y/n I like you but I shouldn't have kissed you. Nobody can know about this" and on that note she ran off.

I lay flabbergasted on the bed and just stare at the door.
She was so confident in kissing me. So what changed her mind?

I couldn't sleep, I kept thinking about emily. About her soft touch, those gentle lips. Those hips on mine. My leg over hers. But then those words...she pulled away in fear. All I wondered was why...

Emily's pov:

I run back to my room.
I burry my head in my hands. "God I'm so stupid" I say outloud.
Y/n lips where so soft and full, their body was so magnetic. I barely know them but I Was pulled in. But we can't date! I don't want y/n to get fired. We are not allowed to date, so I have to put my attraction away. I don't want to ruin the friendship we have. But I keep thinking about their lips.

I drift off in a dream, a dream where y/n and I are allowed to be what we want.

Y/n's pov:

I lied restless all night so I texted emily in private.

Y/n: can we talk about this? Why did you run?

But it was already 3 am so emily wouldn't respond. By 5 am I decided to get up and eat breakfast in the hotel.

I get a bagel and coffee and get myself seated with a book.
After awhile I already finish the book. When I really like a book I read much faster. I get so into it that I don't notice my surroundings or how much time has passed. I look up at my watch and it says 6:26.
"You finnaly came back to earth" I jump up. I didn't notice that hotch sat infront of me.

"How long have you been sitting there?" I ask while holding my chest, I almost got a heart attack.
"About 10 minutes" he answered.
I look down at my food and notice I hadn't even started to eat it.
"O shit my coffee has gone cold" I push the cup away.
"I'll let you a new one" hotch got up to get hot coffee.
So I finnaly started to eat my bagel.
Hotch came back with a new mug.

"How long have you been sitting here?" He asked.
"Since 5" I answered as I rubbed my eyes.
And take a sip of my hot coffee.
Hotch's food got delivered to our table apparently I didn't even notice he ordered something.
"Bon appetite" I hear another voice.
Its Rossi's

"You didn't sleep well I presume" he said looking at my face.
"Didn't even get to close my eyes"
All I thought about was emily. I kept checking my phone to see if she responded to my message.

Rossi got himself a cup of coffee and sat down next to me.
"Aaron? How come your up so early?" I ask him. He looks up at me weirdly.
"Ow are we not on first name basis?" I panic slightly.
"It's fine y/n. Nobody from the team dearer to call me by my first name execpt rossi. Gracia won't even stop calling me sir, even on night out" he smiles. Its a weird sight to see him smile. But it's so nice.
"And to answer your question I'm always up so early"

I give dave a look. "Not in the weekends right?" I ask him.
"In the weekends I usually get up at 8" I answered.
"Psychopath" I whispered.
"I heared that"
"I just don't understand how? I get up at 11" dave laughed at me.

We all finish our breakfast when the team slowly arrives and eats with us.
Then we got in separate suv's again.
I was the car with dave, Derek and Spencer.
"Question, does hotch ever blink?" I ask them. They all laugh.
"Kid I'm liking you ever more" Derek said to me.

I check my phone again and see emily reposonded.

Emily: sorry y/n but yesterday wasn't supposed to happen

Y/n: bc of the rules right? Or did I do something wrong?
Emily: no you were amazing. It just can't happen again. Co-workers aren't allowed to date.
Y/n: no your right.

I close my phone and sigh.