In love with my bestfriend(s)

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*the end of the week. So the abortion is done*

Emily stayed with me for the whole week. Held my hand, helped me in the shower after I woke up in a sweat. Every single night.
I haven't been able to say the word yet. But I've been opening up.
Today is my pshyc evalf.

"I haven't worn normal clothes in so long. What do I wear"
Emily walks in and looks at my closet.
"Fem day? Masc day or In-between?" She asked.
I smile at the ground. She's so considerate.
"Masc but medically I can't wear my binder yet"

Emily picks out my clothes. She gives me a sports bra instead of a binder.
A button up and some loose pants.
"It looks a bit formal but it's still comfortable if you want to come home after"

I change in the bathroom and then we have a small breakfast.
"Thanks for staying with me"
She gives her amazing smile with the shine in her eyes.
"I'm glad you asked me too"

We finish our breakfast and head to work.
I said hi to the team and went to the phsyc evalv.
It was heavy, really heavy. I couldn't say the word again.
He wanted me to but I couldn't.
"That's all doctor y/l/n. You will hear soon if you passed"
I nodd and walk to the bathroom. To clean of my face. My hands are trembling as i do so. I wanted to walk out but penelope just walked in.
"Hey how did it go?" She asked.
"Not sure" I didn't know what els to say.

I went home, alone this time.
I wait unpatiantly until I get the email.

I keep hitting refresh, and get myself a beer.
Eventually I get the mail.

Dear y/n

Blablqblqblq I'm sorry blabla but you didn't pass...bla bla bla bla bla...
I want you to set up with a therapist for your ptsd. Blablaval keep going to meetings blablqvlqb. You can do another evaluation in a week or later.
Blablablabla I want you to admit what happend blabla and beable to say the word.

Blablablqblqvql
Kind regards.

I looked bumped at my computer.
I take my phone and text in the group chat.

Doctor badass: guess who failed their pshyc evaluation 😛😭

Baby gurl: oww peaches, maybe you just need some more time.

Doctor badass: he wants me to admit what happend and go to therapy ( for my ptsd) instead of using my sponsor as therapist.

Bau goddess: fuck him, therapy sucks.
Doctor badass: thank you!! The goddess agrees.

Papa rossi: hey you got your flirting back!

Chocolate thunder: why do only pretty boy and brown eyes get y/n's flirty eyes. I feel left out.

Pretty boy genius: ha suck it!!
Bau goddess: yea suck it.

Bau dilf: * reply to Doctor badass: thank you! The goddess agrees* first off all, I already made therapy mandatory for you? And don't you have a PhD in pshychology?

Doctor badass: bohoo 🙄 I didn't go to therapy. Your being a pretty dicky dad rn.

Bau milf: since when is hotch your dad?
Bau dilf: yea? Why do yall kids think I'm your father?

Pretty boy genius:bc you are.

Doctor badass: I have daddy issues okay.
Bau goddess: me too!!
Pretty boy genius: same!

Bau dilf: actually same.

Chocolate thunder: mine and pens our dead does that count?
Doctor badass: does for me.

Babygurl: yeey, I'm part of the club 🥳.
Doctor badass: pen you are so cute sometimes. Actually all the time.

Bau milf: are me and rossi the only ones without daddy issues?
Papa rossi: yep just us.

Doctor badass: how did we go from me failing my phsyc evalv, to this?

Pretty boy genius: no idea.

I texted emily in private.

Y/n: hey 👋 🙂
Em: ew why that emoji its so creepy.
Y/n: fits my mood, smiling but dying inside.
Em: well that's depressing.
Y/n: that's my life...anyway....
Y/n: would you want to come over again, it felt kind off nice not being so alone?
Em: 😊yes, I never slept so great.
Y/n: me too!! Well besides the nightmares.
Y/n: im going to a meeting first, so my house at 7?
Em: deal 🤝

I got a text from Spencer.

Spence: want to get coffee before the meeting?
Y/n: sure, name the time and place
Spence: the meeting starts at 5 so let's meet around 4:30? At the coffee shop from last time.
Y/n: hell yea I want a pastery aswell 🍰
Spence: hey I just want to say, no worries that you didn't pass the pshyc evalf. I basically bribed him to let me work again after I got kidnapped. Suckered didn't even notice I was high.
Y/n: wait what?! He like dubble check my pupils and my reacts.
Spence: oof that may be of me then. Sorry.

I laughed out loud before getting in the car.
Spencer and I sat down at the coffee shop on the couch.
I sneak a picture of him, and text it in the group chat.

Doctor badass: sorry but he's so cute with his glasses. I had to share!

Bau milf: he never wears his glasses anymore. I always thought they looked good on you spence.

Pretty boy genius: until derek bullied me.

Doctor badass: don't do pretty boy wrong like that! 🤚👊 I'm throwing hands! Don't Hurt this soft and gentle creature. He must me protected at all costs ☝️

Babygurl: sorry but am I the only one seeing this. Such a ship ✨️

Bau milf: ship 🤝
Papa rossi: I don't get it?
Chocolate thunder: damn I don't want to be on the wrong side of y/n! 

Chocolate thunder: I also ship them🤝
Doctor badass: o shut up.

Papa rossi: Penelope?
Babygurl: ill explain.

After the meeting*

Doctor badass: spencer: y/n look I'm really hight up!!!

Doctor badass: he even pushed me 😊.
Prettyboy genius: some punk kid said we were to old :(
Doctor badass: adults can have fun too!!

Bau milf: but adults don't get stuck in the baby chair.
Pretty boy genius: omg jj!! It happend once.

Doctor badass: I can imagine it 😅
Baby gurl: i can't help but to ship you.

Papa rossi: I still don't get.