In love with my bestfriend(s)

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Y/n's pov:

I was in the hospital bed after surgery. I had internal bleeding. I start to wake up my whole body still hurts. It feels like his hand are still on me. I felt so dirty and disgusting.

I couldn't move, I felt a hand in mine. But I couldn't stay in the moment. I kept dissociating, everything hurts.
I just stare forward while tears exit my eyes.

Emily's pov:

I sat down next to y/n holding their hand. I noticed they hoped their eyes.
"Hey you" but they don't respond. I place my other hand ontop of theirs.
But no response. I look in to their eyes. They are filled with fear as tears leave their eyes. They are completely dissociated.

The team slowly walks in.
"How are they" jj asked.
"They are dissociated." I answer the team.
"Their mind is probably shielding itself from the trauma" Spencer explained to the team.

"I requested a transfer for them. They will be going to the hospital in quantico ad soon as they allow transportation" hotch told us.

"Penelope has been calling all day" Derek moved outside.

"We will let them rest" hotch said before leaving.

*2 days later*

Y/n was just transferred to quantico.
Spencer and I have Been holding there hand. Every time we let go they freak out.

They rarely come out of their dissociated state.

I got a call from hotch.
"Prentiss?" I say on the phone.
"We have a case"
"What about y/n?" I ask him. I can't just leave them.
"Penelope is on her way. She will stay by their side while still doing her job"
I agree and wait till Penelope arrives.

They had set up a bed neck to y/n where I've been sleeping.
Penelope walks in with all her stuff.
"Have they woke up today?" She asked
"No its just wall staring like the usual"
Penelope puts all her stuff on the bed.
"Make sure you hold their hand constantly. They freak out the second you let go. Even when you sleep"
I tell her.

"Working with one hand, got it"

Penelope places her hands one y/n's while I pull mine away. Y/n wrapped her fingers around penelope's hand.

Penelope's pov:

I make sure to hold y/n's hand the whole time, while working on the case.
The nurses where so kind to bring food for me.
After the hours I close my laptop and lay myself on my side facing y/n.
I look in their eyes but they don't shift. It's like they are staring right through me.
"Your going to be okay I promise"

*next morning*

I wake up and look at y/n. They have their eyes closed. Trying to get some rest. I get back to work and call with Derek. I feel y/n pull on my arm and immediately look at them.
They opend their eyes, their pupils shift one me.
They pull their hand out of mine and rubb their eyes.
"Nono, be carefull sweetheart"
I didn't want them to Hurt themselves.

"Pen?" They asked confused.
I smiled at them so happy they are awake, like really awake.
"Im here, and I'm so glad your awake," I smile at them.
"What do you mean? Was I asleep for long or something?where am I" Y/n sits up straight and puts a pillow infront of their stomach.

"What's the last you remember?" I ask them.

They sit quietly for a moment.
"I remember being in the ambulance after-. Nooo"
Y/n starts to panic and cry and hit their head.
"Nono!" I grab both their arms.
"Your safe, he's in jail. Your okay sweetheart"

I hold on to them.

Y/n's pov:

After I calmed down Penelope told me I was in a disassociated state for 3 days. She also told me I was in that basement for 3 days.
"I need to take a shower" I felt disgusting.
"I'll help you"
"I don't need help!" I snapped back at penelope. "I'm sorry, i- I didn't mean to yell. I'm sorry p" I start crying again.
"Just help me in the bathroom pls" Penelope helps me walk inside and turns on the shower for me. She puts fresh clothes ready for me.

I get in the cold shower and scrub down my body heavly. I scrub and scrub, making my skin turn red. But i still don't feel clean. I scrub and scrub. Until I realise it won't work.

I get dressed in the hoodie and jogging. I couldn't tell anyone what he did to me. I can't. I walk out back to penelope, every step I take hurts.
She helped me sit down.
"I just told the team, they are glad your back"

But I'm not back. Y/n is gone.
"When can i leave?" I ask her.
"I'll go ask" Penelope got up and left. I was alone. I could still see penelope, but I was alone in that room.and I was terrified.

Penelope walked back in and I was in tears again. "What's wrong sweetheart?" She asked.
I wipe my tears. "Nothing, what did they say?" I ask her.
"You can leave today, you stay at my house so I can keep an eye on you."
Penelope was very kind for offering. I wanted to be alone but I was to scared to sleep all alone in my apartment.
"Thank you." I smile at her.

*later in the day*

We stopped at my apartment to take some clothes and then went to penelope's apartment.

It was very colourfull lik I expected.
"I still have to work, but you can setup in the guest room" I nodd and walk over. I close the door I slide down to the floor. Breaking down in tears.
All I could think about is using.

All I could feel is his hands on my body and the images of my mother collapsing.

"Y/n? Hotch wants to talk to you" I hear penelope say. I wipe my tears and quickly pretend I'm okay.

I walk in the room and see its a video call. "Hi aaron" my voice breaks.
I go sit down behind the computer.
While penelope puts on some food.

"Y/n I want you to take time to heal both fysicaly as mentally. Your therapist is aware of the situation. You can call her day or night."
I sigh and another tear escapes my eyes.
"Thanks aaron" I smile at him.
"Penelope is so kind to open her home for you. All of our homes are open for you aswell. When I get back I fo want to discuss somethings with you. But for now. I'm glad to see you responsive." Tears stream down my face. I was nervous to what he wants to talk about.