Lissy Romano

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Lissy Romano

Everything is different after Amara was killed. A week ago was her funeral. It was so hard to be there, but the funeral by itself was very beautiful.

We bought beautiful flowers for her and there was this live music. On the big headstone was engraved her name and things about her.

Giovanni made sure that there was a little headstone for their unborn baby too. It was so heartbreaking to see that.

Giovanni is trying to act like he is okay, but we all know that he's not okay. We are trying to be there for him. And he is clinging onto me like I'm the last person on this planet.

It's nighttime and I am in the kitchen, sitting on the stool doing my schoolwork. Since I am homeschooled I can decide when I want to study. That's so cool.

I didn't want to sleep so I decided to come here and do something productive, it's better than just laying in my bed and scrolling through my phone.

Jax is just resting on my lap. He is getting bigger and bigger. But he will always fit into my lap. He is my little Jax and he will always be.

"What are you doing here?" deep, but soothing voice asked, I could smell alcohol on him as he walked past me

It was Dante. We aren't talking much since he yelled at me. I don't want to give him another reason to yell at me. It's better to keep my distance from him. And especially now, when he is drunk.

"Schoolwork." I replied as I didn't even look at him

"Lissy, we haven't talked much..." he started as he sat on the other stool in front of me

I can't remember why...notice the sarcasm.

"I am sorry for yelling at you. I didn't want to scare you." he apologized, talking only made that disgusting alcohol smell worse and I was just writing down stupid numbers for stupid brain damaging math

I nodded my head and kept my eyes on the book. It's easier than in the real school. I can cheat a little bit on the tests, because there isn't a teacher that goes around and watches my every move.

"Lissy, I said that I am sorry for yelling at you." he said again, this time my eyes landed on his

"And I don't care anymore." I said as I shrugged my shoulders

"Lissy, did you even hear what I said?" he asked as he looked at me

"I heard everything perfectly. You are sorry for yelling at me. I get it. Okay. You can leave me alone now." I said as I looked at my notepad

It isn't all about yelling. Yes, it is about the fact that he was able to yell at me, but mainly because he was able to look how scared I was of him and he left at the end of it. He didn't care about my mental health, but he knows how badly it can get.

I looked at my notepad and I understood that I need to work on my handwriting. I can't understand more than half of what I wrote there.

"Why are you so mad? Was it really that bad that you treat me this way now, Elizabeth?" he asked and my mouth opened agape

I tried to blink away my tears as my lower lip started to quiver. I can't cry in front of him. But memories of Miguel came back to my mind and I couldn't help it.