Lissy Romano

118| Turn bad.

Lissy Romano

Maybe I imagined it all.

Maybe my father...kidnapper wasn't that bad.

I think about him a lot. Maybe he wanted what's better. Maybe he wanted to love me, but didn't know how.

Maybe he cared about me, that's why he wanted me to go to that good, expensive school. He wanted me to be educated and smart.

He cared about me like I was his own daughter. Only because he loved me.

Only if...

Maybe I'm just stupid. Maybe it was all my fault.

What did I ever do for him? Did I ever showed him love or affection? No.

I was selfish and egocentric bitch.

"He kidnapped you, Lissy." Paolo said calmly

I shook my head slowly. He did that because he loved me.

"He hurt you, Lissy." he said again

Maybe I deserved that. I wasn't a saint either.

"He wasn't a good man." Paolo reminded

"I wasn't a good daughter." I said quietly

"You can't blame yourself for his actions." he said sadly

"Why did he kidnap me? I don't even know why. I wasn't perfect. I wasn't even good. Why did he want such a horrible person in his home? Why didn't he just kill me?" I asked as I furrowed my eyebrows with tears in my eyes

"It isn't true, Lissy. You were just a kid." he started, "Your brothers once revealed why. But I don't know if you're ready to hear that." he added

"I want to know everything." I said quickly, "Please." I begged

"He had some business with your dad, they knew each other. After some misunderstandings, he left and never came back." he said and I listened carefully, "When you were kidnapped your dad did everything to find you, but he never thought that Miguel was involved in that." he added

"But why?" I asked with tears in my eyes

"Because he was a sick man. He wasn't normal. Only a disgusting man can do all the things he did to you." Paolo said and I looked at him without saying anything

"All people are like that. We all have something good and something bad in ourselves." I tried to explain so he would understand me

"No, Lissy. Not all people are like that. I'm really sorry that you had to experience such a traumatic situations, but I can guarantee you that all people are not like he was." he said and anger and frustration grew inside of me

"How can you lie to my face like that? I've seen different kinds of people and even if they are good they can turn bad." I said angrily as I blinked away my tears

"Your brothers are good." he said and I scoffed

"Don't bring my brothers into this." I said in frustration, "And they are in the mafia, they have their bad sides too."