Lissy Romano

105| I'm not afraid anymore.

I recommend to listen to these three songs as you read this chapter...

1. People Help the People
Song by Birdy
2. Gilded Lily
Song by Cults
3. Evergreen
Song by Omar Apollo

Lissy Romano

I must have fallen asleep because I felt strong arms picking me up and carrying me somewhere.

I slowly opened my eyes and saw Dante. He was so warm and he smelled so good.

"Dante..." I started and he cut me off

"Shush, baby. Go back to sleep." he said softly

Jax was in my lap sleeping like a litte puppy he is. I pressed my head against Dante's shoulder and closed my eyes again.

I was half asleep, half awake. Dante placed me and Jax on the bed and he tucked us in the blankets. He wanted to walk away, but I grabbed his hand.

"Stay. Please." I said softly, quietly

He laid down next to me. He petted my head with one of his hands.

"Everything is okay?" he asked softly as he caressed my cheek

"Do you know Miguel?" I asked as I looked at him

His face expression changed and he closed his eyes like he was trying to think of something to say.

"No, I don't. But you do." he replied as he gently ran his fingers through my hair

"I remembered something. He was drinking and shouting. Who's he?" I asked as I looked at him

"It's hard to explain, sorellina." Dante said sternly

"Please tell me. I need to know." I said as I nodded my head

"Please remember that we didn't tell you anything for your own good, okay?" Dante asked and I nodded my head

"When you were just two years old you were kidnapped and you lived with a man named Miguel until he died and social services contacted us. We tried to find you, I promise. We did everything we could." Dante said and everything changed

My vision blurred and I couldn't breathe anymore. My life was like that and I forgot it? It was better when I didn't remember. I was normal, but now? I'm not normal.

Everything changed so quickly I didn't even get anything to hold onto, because everything I believed in and everything I tried to learn about my life disappeared like air I exhaled.

Why did my brothers didn't tell me anything about it? Why did they lied and told me that I was having a great childhood and that I was with them all the time. It was a lie.

Memories flooded in my mind and I remembered how I felt when I was with him. With Miguel. I was scared, hurt, with low self esteem and I had no voice.

I was nothing and he treated me like I was nothing. But I was a person. I was just a kid. Kid who wanted to be loved. Kid who wanted and craved love.