willing to be your knight (Knight Series, #2)

47: Loved

Axl

"Your dad would do that?" Visibly disturbed, he was still facing the window. Looking out for minutes then, whilst I tell him everything, he just didn't look at me for a second.

That made me guilty.

"He once tried to kill you, remember?" I said.

"I can never forget, Axl." He faced me for the first time since my confession.

"He succeeded taking my love once," he then looked at my soul.

I'm sorry. I couldn't do anything.

"I wasn't about to lose to him again." Pertaining to my dad trying to take Pin away from him three years ago.

I just could not help it but be sad thinking about how my life ruined his. It might have stopped but I couldn't be sure when it will start again. This only ends two ways. Me gone, or my dad.

I was seated on the sofa when I felt weight coming from my side, there was Luke, a hand on my cheek, wiping it. I was crying.

"I'm so sorry."

Once I was in his embrace, I felt the comfort I have never even felt for a long time. But then was different.

I couldn't find any love for Luke anymore. The feelings I had for him was turn into memories. Forgotten, orchestrated by my own father.

"It wasn't your fault." He pushed me a little and held my arms, made me look at his eyes directly. "I loved you..."

I looked at him.

"I mean, I still do. But, the love we had..." He faced the opposite direction before walking away.

Steps, I counted four. He pulled something out of my drawer. A compartment I have never seen before. Inside my wooden drawer, under the things there, hid a paper.

"... we weren't for each other." He then passed me the paper that had our promises together. Promises I couldn't fulfill.

As streams of water came out of my eyes, Luke just pressing down to the table, I just knew it hurt him so much. I left him and I had no clue.

"How did you do?" I asked at him while I tried to comfort myself and calm the fuck out.

"Hmm?" Facing me, he furrowed his eyebrows in confusion.

"I mean how was you... ," I gulped. "... when I left?"

He chuckled a little bit before speaking. "Got so confused, tried contacting every person I know with a hold of you, even your father."

Shocked, I didn't know what to do. He was brave falling in love with me but to contact my father was a next level feat of bravery.

"Fucked around first year of college, since I didn't know what happened to us. Girls, some boys. I really was fucked up."

I couldn't imagine how hards for him it was. It was an understatement to say I didn't know.

"Then, I met Pin." He smiled at me so genuinely.

He really love that guy and I am so happy for him.

He found peace in someone who will never hurt him the way I did.

"We were never really for each other, Luke." I stood up and brushed my face. I know it was puffing up so bad from all that crying.

"Yeah." He said trying to make me fell better.

"Shawarma?" I winked at him.

"Oh, hell yeah!" He then proceeded to casually put the paper he grabbed back to the drawer where it sat for years.