willing to be your knight (Knight Series, #2)

65: My Knight

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It has been four months.

Marami na ang nabago sa buhay ko pero hindi ko pa rin makalimutan ang nangyari noong gabi na 'yon. Bakit kailangan pa naming marananasan ang lahat nang 'yon para paghiwalayin kami? Bakit kinailangan naming masaktan nang sobra para lang mawalay kami sa isa't isa?

"The bed feels so empty without you." I stared at the sky before trying to hold my tears that were already rushing out.

It has been four months.

"Miss na miss na kita, Drey." I whispered in the air before wiping my tears. Alam kong gusto niya na masaya lang ako dahil hindi siya sumalo ng isang dosenang bala para lang malungkot ako nang ganoon.

I then took a sip if coffee before admiring the view of his condo balcony. The same view that we would share when we're there talking to each other like we wouldn't be seeing each other tomorrow.

The smoke was the most thing he hated. Me too. But now, I wanna inhale all that smoke if it means remembering how happy we were before that night. I wish I could relive all the moments we shared leading up to that night and freeze a time-loop, so that we'd still be happy.

"Kuya." I heard a faint voice coming from a man that was peeking out the balcony door. It was Layn curiously looking at me.

"Oh, bakit?" I wiped my tears and looked at him. Lumapit pa siya sa akin at hinawakan ang balikat ko.

"How was therapy?" Tanong niya sa akin habang nakatingin rin sa mga building.

"Okay lang naman. Malaking tulong." I said honestly. It was the best decision I made that Layn influenced after that faithful night. I had been getting nightmares and have been constantly depressed but therapy really helped me recover.

Nanatili lang kami na nakaupo roon habang nakasandal siya sa balikat ko. Hindi pa rin ako makapaniwala na all the time had passed already. The first year of my college is done and Layn's third year too. I'll become a sophomore and Layn will be a senior student. It has been so hard studying just a semester without him. I wasn't the brightest student and Drey would always help me with computations and calculations, luckily Luke has been there to support me too—that guy is one hell of a bright student.

"I really miss him." I said while holding my tears.

He was taken back by what I had said. Tumayo pa siya at tumingin sa akin nang nakakaloko. "Miss? Miss mo mukha mo kuya! Kasama mo lang kanina eh, miss mo na agad?"

Napatawa ako sa sinabi niya. "Hinatid mo lang sa physiotherapist niya kanina eh."

"Hala! Anong oras na Layn?"

Napatingin siya sa relo niya bago sinabing, "4:50 kuya."

Agad akong tumayo sa kinauupuan ko at inakit na siyang umalis dahil kailangan ko pang sunduin si Drey sa clinic na pinagpapagalingan niya. Tatlong buwan ko na rin siyang dinadala roon para makalakad siya nang maayos dahil pagkatapos noong gabi na 'yun ay na-ospital siya ng halos isang buwan kaya nahihirapan siyang itayo ang sarili niya.

"Anong sabi ng physio niya? Narinig ko si Layn na katabi ko habang nagda-drive siya nang marahan.

"He's getting better daw. Nakakalakad na siya nang mag-isa pero he still needs time to be fully healed." Tumango na lang siya at tumahimik hanggang sa makarating kami sa clinic nang saktong 5 pm.