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Part 71

I'm so sorry that I didn't post last week. I just didn't know what to do for this chapter but I finally did so here you go. I hope you enjoy chapter 71.
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GDR's POV

Very loud yelling could be heard from downstairs. Somehow I've learned to just live with it. It's something that's normal now, something that I couldn't control anyways.

I sighed and put my knees against my chest more. I wonder why they did this though. Why would they find any opportunity to fight with one another? Did they just not love each other?

Probably so.

I looked at my other siblings. FRG was practically clinging to Russia like a monkey. He did that when our parents were fighting anyways. They both didn't seem okay, they never did handle these things as good as I did. I didn't need anyone to hold.

"I was just thinking about something." I looked over at the other bed when I heard Russia say something. "What were you thinking about?" he put the best smile he could onto his face. "Nicknames for you and FRG." when FRG heard his name he took his head off of Russia's shoulder.

"Nicknames." he said and Russia looked down at him. "Yes nicknames, I've put a lot of thought into this." I placed my head on my knees. "What nicknames have you made?"

"Well since the two of you are basically the opposite of one another I was thinking on nicknaming you north and south but that doesn't sound good at all so I decided on east and west. GDR is east and FRG is west." he placed one of his hands on his hip with a very proud look on his face. I didn't know why he wanted to nickname up directions but I didn't feel like questioning anything about it.

FRG nodded his head with a small smile. "I like it." he said to Russia which made him look even more proud of his work. "What about you GDR, do you like it?" FRG directed his attention to me now and I just nodded my head. I didn't really care what I was called but since FRG seemed to like it I just ultimately decided to go with it.

"Okay east and west it is then." Russia said generally seeming happy despite the loud yelling that was heard through the door. A small smile came onto my face as I looked away. He could somehow make things slightly better if something was going wrong.

We then heard a loud thud from downstairs. It seems as so their fight had now gotten physical. The good mood inside the room immediately faded away. FRG went back to clinging onto Russia and Russia's face was filled with concern.

We didn't know who could have made the first blow but more then likely it was Vater who did. Lately their fights have been getting more physical. Actually I've seen that папа had been drinking more of that alcohol stuff more often in bigger quantities. Also has been smoking more and actually doing it inside. I only know this because sometimes Vater would bring it up in arguments. Vater hated the fact папа smoked I mean he couldn't stand it in general and whenever you walked down the hall to папа's office you could smell it. You couldn't smell it before since he did it outside and because he's doing it inside more often Vater has been getting mad about that.

I wonder if there was even a day that they weren't arguing. I wonder if there was a day that they were actually happy with each other. Sometimes I wonder why they still are even together.

I wanted them to be happy with each other I really did. I just wanted to have a normal family. A family were we could go at least a day without fighting or people completely leaving for a week or more. Is that to much to ask for?

I placed my head in my arms. I hated this place sometimes. I hated my parents sometimes. Sometimes I just wanted to leave for awhile. Sometimes I just didn't want to even be around my parents. I didn't really think that any of them were really in the right. I just couldn't stand my family sometimes.

I knew more then they thought I did. I knew more then everyone thought I did. I didn't really know if it was a blessing or some sort of curse. I wish I didn't know much about these types of situations. I wish I didn't understand what they were even arguing about. Sometimes I didn't understand much but this time I did.

Vater and папа are currently fighting about папа having to leave again. That seems to have been what the fights have been about lately. I found it weird that Vater never wanted папа to leave the house but he did it all the time. Did Vater just want to know where папа was all the time or was it for another reason?

I don't think I would ever know though. I didn't really want to know if it was for another reason anyways. Maybe папа had done something wrong or maybe it's because of the idea I already said. But if папа actually did something wrong then I wouldn't want to know what it was. Maybe it was stupid or maybe he actually did something wrong. If it's not stupid then I definitely didn't want to know. I didn't want my thoughts or views to change on папа.

Soon enough the quiet room started to get filled with the sounds of soft singing. I looked up slightly and over to my other siblings. Russia was quietly singing something in Russian. I didn't know Russian so I didn't understand what he was saying but it had to be some lullaby.

It seemed to block out the yelling from downstairs just a bit. Making reality fade away just a bit.

Just a little bit.

I then looked at FRG and he seemed scared. Maybe that's why Russia started to sing, probably to make FRG feel a bit better. He seemed to need some sort of comfort anyways. He needed someone to hold onto.

I didn't need anyone to hold onto.

I couldn't show fear because if I did it could be used against me. I couldn't have anything get used against me honestly. Just like Vater had said fear shows weakness which weakness could easily be used against you.

If you had fallen down you could never get back up.

4/4

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