four words [the fangirl ii - a.i]

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     We've been in Australia for a month. I've called to London, to her parents, to inform that she was with me, here with my family. Now, we woke up at two in the morning to prepare for arriving The Hidden Beach at Mexico which was exactly located in Marieta Islands in Peurto Vallarta.

     Other havens like this one and home were the safest lairs we've got. I was thinking that if I let the world see this- this very moment when we walked over the pier to the yacht. It was like I let the world to attack this beautiful moment. I wanted to be open, of course, these fans have given us a life to live the way we wanted but I was afraid, that something Acacia incident might happen again.

     Our happiness had fear and so was our hearts.

     I was in deep thought, wondering if there would be any shifting about Sarah and I. I mean would they love her? My family and same goes to her, would she love them? Just when my little brother broke out our holding hands and he kept himself in between us and held both of our hands.

     We have arrived at The Hidden Beach. It was so beautiful especially because the sun was reaching the horizon. From this moment, parts of the world glows gold. It was so beautiful.

     Everyone here was ready to go on swimming. They tossed the bags and all the other things we've carried here on the sand where I was going to sit.

     It felt familiar but it felt more private. No one could hear us, see us, take this moment from us but we ourselves in here.

     It was the right time to say it, to ask it. If you'll wait for the right time, and if not today, then when? I won't wait for forever to wait for the right time.

     After all love is about taking risks.

     I did not sleep well the night before this. How could I if I've had a good company. We kept up all night. Talking about life, relationships, music and kisses.

     You've read it right. Kisses. How could it be more awkward?

     We were in my room. At my bed. Lying, when I tried to shift my body to the sides to look at her. She suddenly sat up with her forefinger up she said, "Don't you dare!" I just laughed. She thought I was going to kiss her.

     The night was silent because everyone was asleep. The dogs were already asleep too. The house felt ours, the night was ours. Why would you want to sleep if the world seemed nothing but ours. For the first time, everything just seemed to agree on what our hearts screaming.

     I spread my both arms wide and she came into it. I felt my ribcage just broke. She jumped to my chest. But it was all fine, if that was the consequence. Since then if you'd compare it , it was more bigger than this fracture. If ever it was broken.

    I tucked her in closer, I held her tighter then loosen up after two seconds.

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      Her feet drowned in sand, walking straight towards me, she said, "Ashton," then walked passed behind me. I was sitting still, waiting for her to do whatever was on her mind, when I felt her arms around my neck and put her chin at my head. She asked, "You okay?", playing with my locks. Pouting, even she couldn't see me, I looked up at her and you know what happened next.

     She covered my mouth with her hands from behind me and shouted, "Don't ever do that again."

     She forced to put my head back up and tucked me in instead. I said, "But I've kissed you like not less than five times. So..."

     Being her chin at my shoulders now and her arms at my waist, hugging me from my behind, she buried her faced to it. It made me smile, it was the other way around back then.

     "Stolen kisses are the worst. You know?," she replied. I could barely understand what she was saying. Her words sounded scrambled, "its cute." she continued.

     I lightly put my head on top of hers. "Ahhhh, you're cute. I love you."

     "You smell so great. What soap do you use?" she asked instead of responding to my I love you.

     "Its my sweat. You know?" I smirked.

     "Haha. You gotta be shitting me. Seriously though."

     "Normal soap. What the hell Sarah. Haha."

     She squeezed my stomach, "I love you too." I see. She just couldn't respond that instant.

     My shy little nugget.

     None of my past relationships have ever tucked me in. Only her. It felt so wonderful. It felt so new, it was different from what I've done to a couple of times. It was... what do you call that? I had... butterflies.

     Our skin touched. She was stroking my stomach with no direction. A random new thing that she was searching. I took her hand and put them into mine instead.

     "What were you doing?" I asked, giggling.

     "Nothing. I was looking for your ticklish part. Why?" she asked.

     "You're giving me a new sensation. It feels different but I like it."

     With that my mother called us out. She was in the water, with my little brother, at the shallow part of the beach. "Wouldn't you want to join us?" she asked and in that instant she stood up and shake off the see-through wardrobe that she was wearing. Underneath that was a one piece swimsuit and shorts.

     I wasn't being creepy. Really, but she was beautiful. She always has been beautiful.