four words [the fangirl ii - a.i]

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I wasn't expecting that. Never thought he would watch me with the fact that he banned me from listening to the bands when I was ten like Metallica that I was just about to be addicted to. He said not that its a bad thing but I was too young to be listening to that kind of music, but ten isn't that young, right? So I became a rebel and secretly listening to it.

"Anyway," he said, cutting me, "how's your mom?" My head suddenly popped up. Looking into his eyes trying to find some sincerity and... love, maybe.

"You should go home." I just said and left.

Walking away from him was like stabbing my back multiple times, it hurts. This was all I wanted but I won't let him in just like that. He maybe left us just like that but he won't step in our lives like walking out for jogging and just come back.

*beep*

Where are you?

A direct message from the unexpected but the person I need the most now.

Can you come over? I need you. I replied.

Not less than in a minute she called me. Everything that was happening is unexpected.

"Glad you didn't changed your number. Where are you?" her voice was soft.

I couldn't say anything. I was speechless. I just need her beside me.

"Ash.. You're making me worried. Say something."

I sighed out... "I... I just need you here. Please?"

"Where are you?"

"No, where are you? I'll pick you up."

"At home. Probably. I don't think mom would let me out."

"Please Sarah?"

"The magic word maybe doesn't work anymore but I still would go with you. I'll be out in five." She said and I guess she just stumbled because I heard a loud bang of noise from the other line.

"I told you I'll pick you up but that doesn't mean you should be stumbling around. Be careful, okay?" I said running back to the pathway where I've gone earlier with my phone still up on my ear.

Even out of sight I could hear her smiling, "Okay." Then she clicked the end call button. Okay, maybe okay will be our i love you. I still remember that night when I called her which is the first time I got her phone number and thus i love yous was born.

***

It was dark out when I came and pick her up. She was waiting outside sitting across the street ,which is blocks away from their home, with her skinny jeans and loose white t-shirt. With her hair falling just they way they are in every direction, she looked beautiful. I've planned to sit across the street because she didn't seem to notice me because of darkness just to stare at her for a few minutes but she was shivering.

"Didn't your mom told you to get some jacket because its cold out?" I said giving her my leather jacket even I knew she didn't told her mother she was going out. She literally jumped back.

"Sorry," I said.

"What happened?" she asked pulling the sleeve in her arms then she wiggled.

"What what happened?" I asked doing some footsteps. She followed.

"When we were on the phone."

"Ahh, that..." I recall, "it was something personal and I want this to tell you when we got to somewhere warm. Alright?" I continue blowing my hands with my warm breathe because I was literally freezing.