four words [the fangirl ii - a.i]

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"Okay. This is something I wasn't expecting." Our manager drive by the flat and it was something we weren't expecting too. Normally he'd wait for us at studio and would give us lessons and reasons why we shouldn't be late for practice and meetings. "The Modest is doing what he had done with Louis Tomlinson."

"And I am not amused with it." Luke said, firmly, as well as his jaws. "I mean... its the only thing that we actually own. The relationship we want with the person we truly want." He was speaking through gritted teeth and with his hands on fists.

I couldn't say anything because only Calum told me. It wasn't official. Then that's when he called my name. "... and Ashton is with Bryana from now on."

Jaw dropped I realized that Calum wasn't lying. It was all true and I couldn't believe it. "But how about Sarah?" I asked, walking towards him. "How about her? How about our engagement?"

"That. That is one of the most horrible things that we are about to do." He looked into my eyes, searching for forgiveness that I might never give. "We are calling it off."

I couldn't say a thing, or any words. I could say no though but I know this management that we were in was as strong as the President of United States of America. They could do anything. "That's unfair." Calum spoken up and Michael was just sitting there at the corner without any problem. "Like... you have to consider some things too. Sarah is a human, a fangirl if you have forgotten about it. Ashton is too, and Luke."

Calum always speaks for me and I thank the Gods for creating him, meeting him. "Its hugely unfair because they are getting married and this might be the reason why it would be really we call it off." Michael spoken up too.

I sat down the couch. "You can complain if you want to. But you're gonna talk to him, not through me." He said and I didn't found any reconsideration in it. It was like he didn't care about this, about us, about me.

I hated him.

"If you want a career then you might as well just go on with what he says," he explained. "I thought about it. I suggested anything to make the band more alive but he didn't consider it. He said it was the fastest to make the ratings up. To make an unpleasant rumor."

"Why did we say yes again? With the half of the profit? We made it without them." I said, looking down the ground. And right there I hallucinated about Sarah, was standing on the same ground with us, in this room but her image faded away. "Louis Tomlinson only found us out. Luke made it to Youtube and Twitter and we only got bigger when he twitted our video." I said looking up at them.

I smiled at him, "I don't think if both of you have fallen inlove. Or even care about somebody else's feelings." I said and got out the room with only my wallet and phone and carkeys in my pockets.

Why does it seems that every tragic affair was happening to us? Its saddening that the world didn't want us to be happy but we could if we force it to.

"Ashton." Luke called my name as I waited for the elevator to ting open. "Where are you going?" He asked, walking towards me. I could see in his eyes that he was sincere, he cared.

"Somewhere that no one knows my name." I said and stepped forward in the elevator. He ran and made it with me. We were silent. Today, silence is something we were craving for, we wanted peace.

"Its impossible to find a place that no one knows your name. 5SOS is something that's attached with 1D. The half of us is One Direction Ashton."

I looked at him behind me. His head was back against the mirror wall. Trying not to leap the tears he had behind his eyes. "I was so happy. Genuinely happy." Luke stated. I could hear the pain in his voice and I somehow felt like he didn't even want to be happy again. Because the pain was just an endless road with thorns and it will keep creating holes in your heart.

"Where are you going?" I asked him. This time, we were both feeling the same thing. We were both running away from the hideous industry we stepped in.

"Somewhere that no one knows my name." He said and we bro hugged then took our separate ways.

This time I consider myself, my happiness, the thing I wanted, the thing I love. These are the things that I held back for a very long time.

My phone was vibrating. I took it out and the registered number was Antoinette. She was calling. "Hey. Where are you?," She asked. Her voice was so soft that what made me completely cry. "Are you coming home?"

"I am coming home."