four words [the fangirl ii - a.i]

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I searched "four words" at the internet. Hoping that I would get something from there but they were all irrelevant. The result was random. It was nothing. I couldn't find a thing that would fit on what was happening between us like relationship, long distance relationship, bands, music, love, drums or anything like it.

     "Sarah, please eat foods. Don't just take coffee every single meal." Dad said, for i-don't-know-how-many-times he reminded me.

     As what always I respond, "I will. I just need to finish this."

      "What this? Your thesis is finished a few days ago. What are you up to?" mom asked, anger and concern blended in her voice. I didn't say a thing but started walking towards my room. I was searching using my cellphone at dinner which my parents didn't usually agree but I insisted.

     "Don't forget to drink milk before going to sleep." Mom said while I was on the stairways. It's the only healthy thing I eat or drink rather.

    I collapsed to my bed and continued searching. I was thinking if I should just unblock him and ask.

     After two hours of searching through Google I gave up. I tried to sleep but the thought of Ashton never left me. It was like he was haunting me and plastered at the ceiling. Those four words were lingering in my head.

[ Ashton ]

Four words, those were the last words I told her. I know it would bug her for forever but there is no way I would tell her what it meant. It was a big secret. My only secret.

     "What four words?" it's been a week now since I told her and still she wasn't unblocking me. She's got a huge ego, but since when? Right, since we fought over Ace. From the very start, she already had, it's her attitude. A lesson learned from her previous relationships, I guess. I never thought of that until now.

Xby VIDSqaure

     There was a wicked side of me thought that it might be the reason for her to unblock me but it didn't work out as what we can see. But those four words are precious and sacred. I was seeing that hope at the end of the road. I liked the way how her confused face followed us until the last glimpse of her and how she wasn't focused because of what I said, when she marched on she bumped to a girl, she turned around, her dress twirled too.

     "It's something." I replied to Luke who was waiting for my answer.

     "Screw something, say it!" he shouted.

     Instead of answering I giggled and never told them. It was morning and they already pestering me about it. I think I should just enjoy and take a ride on what was happening.

     We all took our morning deeds and prepared for a show that we were going to play later. I wasn't expecting her to be there but somewhere in me wished.

     There was this thing in my head playing every night since I saw her at the coffee shop again. That if ever I would have a chance to choose, even if I could be with someone else, I would still choose her no matter what happens.