four words [the fangirl ii - a.i]

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"This is about us, right? Not about Derek, not about Ace. Its us right?" He was switching sides as he asked me this.

I looked at him. Staring at him have been a habit now especially when we are both distant from each other, when we get into a fight which lately occasionally happens. His hair has gotten long, it passed below his ears and now near to his shoulders, a little bit of stubbles that only I could feel when he leans his chin either to my shoulders or to my head or when he hugs me. Lastly, his never fading green with brown eyes.

"We have to know what has gone wrong." I was crossing my arms to my chest. My eyes were observing the outside world from this car at the front window. I couldn't feel relaxed with these four walls as long as people could see us through the window. "You know that there is something wrong."

I continue talking. I poured out all the words, all the thoughts I had in mind. I said everything I had to say. I wanted an honest relationship. Its what I always wanted even having a non-celebrity boyfriend back then but turned out the other way around. That's what all the girls wanted, all women, ladies, mothers. An honest and real relationship.

He just stared at me, probably listening deeply to everything I was saying.

God knows I couldn't leave this man even we have endless fights in the future. Not now that I have him in my hands, in my life. Not this far.

Without saying a word he held my hands. He looked at them and he one by one, my fingers, removed from a clench and made them relaxed. I didn't noticed that my hands were in a fist.

He pulled me into a hug and sang,

I'll give you one more time

We'll give you one more fight

Said one more line

Be a riot 'cause I know you.....

"Check out that song, the music video. I want a relationship like that. I love you so much." he kissed me in the head and left.