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by -irwindipity

by -irwindipity

S A R A H

We were about to fly to America.

Just how much money that would cost?! He insisted since they were going to start touring for America why not bring me there. I somehow felt ashamed and guilty that he spent a lot of money just because of me.

Walking through the hallway, at the opposite part of the airport where only few can have an access, hand in hand with him I said and stopped, "Ashton, if this is what's going to happen I'd go home. I mean look at these," I pointed out my clothes and food. Everything that I have now came from him, "this costs a lot of money. I can go home, I can work. You know? I was working when I ran away. You're not working for me. You're playing for music. You're working for yourself not me. For your family."

Calum, Michael and Luke stopped, as well as the other staff of 5 Seconds of Summer when they noticed the boys have stopped. Ashton signal them to go. Turning to me, he said, "Well, you probably lost it now, its been two months." As what he always did, he held my shoulders and said, "And don't ever think that I'm not working for you because from now on. I am working on with our marriage. Alright? I love you, okay?"

He caught my hand to walk but I did not took a step. Instead, I said, "You can't even move because of me. You always look for me, you always do things for me because I'm new to this, to everything, you always take care of me, you always look after me. I love those things but I know how much this work," I shrugged, "or this dream means to you. It means the world to you and sure as hell you're proud of this and I am too but I want you to enjoy this. You deserve all of these."

He stepped back, with same level where I was standing and said, he almost whispered, "What the hell is wrong with you?" He asked, his voice wasn't angry but serious. His stare changed, he was looking straight into my eyes that I couldn't say what they were saying. I threw the looks he was giving me back which was a mistake, "It was me against the odds out there before, I even fought with one of my bestfriends there and now you are making it looks like this means nothing to me? Like All about of this 'us' meant nothing. Because you may never be the music that I always go after a breakdown but hell music means nothing if it compares to you. I could turn back to music at any time. I asked you for a marriage, this is serious. I never played with love and I never will."

He released his hold out of my hand.

With that he threw his arms out. At the back of his head.

A S H T O N

I did not know what was wrong with her but God, we were fighting everyday since the proposal or even before the proposal.

She was paranoid, always caught her wool-gathering, lately she'd been emotional. You will never know someone unless you've been with them in the same roof. Well, atleast, I knew it early. That I can do a lot more improvement to deal with it. Or maybe she was just stressed out.

She haven't been home.

The weigh on my guilt when I left her alone in the hallway was overwhelming because she was still nowhere to be found and our flight was going to be called in an hour.

As I recall what happened earlier in the hallway. Her right hand was on her waist and the other was on her forehead. We were arguing whether to let her go home or stay.

"Both will cost money Sarah. Money makes the world revolves. Money runs everything. Like, generally, literally." I was trying not to raise my voice because I didn't want another fight. I wanted this trip to be like the engagement party for us.

"That's true but-"

"What is wrong with you?" There was force on my words. Voice has raised.

"Ashton?" Luke called out. I didn't mind him.

"I mean I am trying to work this out. I wanted the both of us to... to enjoy this trip," she pinch her lips using her thumb and forefinger. I think she was trying not to cry, "but you keep trying to ruin it. I don't even know what it is,"

To my surprise she didn't cried instead she put her hands in her pockets and walk. "I don't know. I'm sorry."