A Tangle of Hurt and Happiness - A collection of poetry

His Name

Just one more time, I promised myself,
As I began to write down the rhymes.
My heart etched in every line.
Every star in the sky seems to shine
So bright, reflecting your light.


Joy is laced with pain in every note,
All because I hoped.
My mistake I supposed
Early yesterday when I woke.
So much for not turning myself into a joke.


Just one more poem, I swore.
And I know I'll fail just like before.
My heart aches with every empty little promise,
Every time I say "no more".
Should I just quit and head for the door?


Judgement echoes in my mind as I write down
A name I said wouldn't see paper again.
My fingers shake as I write and I begin to frown.
Every letter makes my heart painfully pound.
Someone, anyone, please tell me why and how?


Just a name, a few letters is all.
And it hurts so bad I can barely crawl
My way out before I fall.
Every time I do feels like the first time, when my heart could still stand tall.
Should I just hit my head against a wall?


Jealousy is not permitted to me,
All because I want you to be free.
My love, just wait and see.
Every path will be pathed in flowers and I will leave you be.
So please be happy.


Just one last time, I'll write your name once more.
And I know that's a lie because I've said it before.
"My time and energy, I can't waste anymore."
Every lie drags me further away from the exit door.
So no, this won't be the last time. I'll love you, even when my heart beats no more.