A Tangle of Hurt and Happiness - A collection of poetry

What My Friends Can't Understand

My friends can't understand it.
How I could bear so much lovely damage.
They don't get what I see,
But they see me bleed,
And it hurts them.
My love is hurting my friends.


I love you,
But I don't,
Nothing's true
Anymore.
Say I wanna close the door,
Yet you're all I'll ever adore.


Everything feels so fake.
Don't know how much more of this I can take.
I know I should let go for my sake,
But the thought only worsens the ache.
The blood from the wound forms a lake.
If I'm not careful, I'm gonna break.


I've said it,
I've meant it,
For years.
Lies and truth aren't separate.
They're weaved together,
And that tie is hard to sever.


Beauty is in the eye of the beholder they say.
But I've been thinking of you for more than a few days.
Even while knowing you will never look my way,
I clung to the hope that maybe, when the time is right, you may.
What a fool I was for thinking that I'd be okay
If I tried to let you go today.


I don't love you,
But I do.
I'm just not enough
For you, it's true.
I never will be as I never have been
Good enough to even be your friend.


I dragged my heart out of its cage.
Then gave it to you, my feelings written on a page.
I thought you would be amazed.
But you weren't acting it out with me on the stage.
This love makes me afraid
To fall further, without a chance of being saved.


I love you,
But I won't
Give in to the hope.
The hope that one day,
You'll love me the same way.
What a foolish thing to wish to say.


My friends don't understand me,
They don't see what I see.
When loving you makes me bleed,
They don't get why I can't set myself free.
I love you so much,
That I'm not the only one hurt when I'm not enough.