A Tangle of Hurt and Happiness - A collection of poetry

A Strange Feeling

It's kind of strange when you realize that you're going to die.
When you realize that, no matter how hard you try,
The time is just gonna fly.
And maybe no one will cry
When you say goodbye.


Learning that my life was being held by a thread.
Made me wonder if I was gonna get out of bed
The next time I lay down to try and escape my head.
I felt strange when the doctor said,
"I'm scared that she's gonna wind up dead."


I never wanted to live long.
But learning that I didn't have a choice all along,
It just feels so wrong.
Whatever I'm feeling in my heart, it's strong.
Kind of like a failed attempt at a song.


You've got the beat running through your head and it sounds fine.
But the lyrics don't make sense, they don't rhyme.
And you're running low on time,
There's no way to rewind.
Like a bad song, this feelings all wrong in my mind.


I used to think life was moving sluggishly slow.
But now the time is passing and all I can think is "no".
Where'd all my life go?
Right out the window,
Left me feeling low.


It's a strange feeling to know that you're dying.
When it doesn't matter how much you're trying,
You're just not surviving.
To know that this might be the last of your fighting.
And I'm no good at thriving.


This is the last of my time,
I'm waiting for that to settle in my mind.
Life has passed me by,
And there's no way to rewind.
I guess I'll just die.