A Tangle of Hurt and Happiness - A collection of poetry

Goodbye James

We barely even talk anymore.
Yet here I am, wondering what's in store.
I want to go back to how we were before.

I trace our future in my mind,
Highlighting and hearting the lines
That I like best.
Then I dream about it all as I lay down to rest.

Whatever we were, I wanted to try.
For the first time,
I wanted to feel those butterflies.

It was uncomfortable at first,
Like driving a long road while dying of thirst,
And there's no time to stop, no way to reverse.
As I go, I drag with me a hearse.
In the coffin, my heart sits, as my love has died.
It took ten years, because somehow, it stood the test of time.
It waited, longing and lonely, until there it could lie.

But it's not broken,
Simply gone for the moment.
It will revive
With new love inside.

I told you about James.
I can't believe that I told you his name.
But I'd tell you anything if we could stay the same.

I'm letting him go now.
Despite my doubts, it's possible, somehow.
He'll always own part of my heart,
But no more for him will I ever fall apart.

Like a candle melts by flame,
He doesn't hold onto me quite the same.
Goodbye James.