A Tangle of Hurt and Happiness - A collection of poetry

I am Not in Love With You

I love you,
That will always be true.
But I'm not in love.
That's kinda hard to think of.
That it doesn't have to be both, it can be just one.

I remember my dad telling me this.
Back then, the meaning I might have missed,
Becomes so clear
When you're near.
This truth is something that I fear.

Because I love you,
I really, truly do.
But I'm not in love with you,
Though years ago, that too,
Might have been true.

My dad said
"You can fall out of love, but that heart is never dead."
I think I understand,
But I'm not sure fate has dealt me my best hand.
I didn't want a solo, I wanted a band.

I don't want to be alone.
But that depends on if my heart is owned,
And, of course, who by.
If it's still you, then I want to cry.
How can it always be the same guy?

I made the claim that writers only have one muse,
That the "love of my life" card had already been used.
I made it up,
Hoped it would be enough.
But it wasn't, so now I'm stuck.

How can I love you,
Without being in love too?
I didn't know that was something someone could do.
Not until my dad explained his view,
And then I realized that the words he spoke were true.