The Bridge

Chapter 19

I just wanna be part of your Symphony. 

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Hindi na namin tinapos ang performance ng mga boys at bumalik na kami sa tent namin. Kailangan namin mag-prepare. 

"I think we're missing people." sabi ni CC. She's very authoritative, maybe it runs in the blood but this time, she's more concerned other than mocking anyone's absence. "We're missing our two ladies for the performance!" 

Dahil worried ako sa sarili ko, hindi ko na din napansin kung sino-sino ang mga nawawala sa hanay namin. I can see CC's expression, it's getting dark. 

"We can't ruin this, we're almost the highlight of this." She's scary but she's right and she has the right to be mad about this since she's been performing, maybe her whole life. Yana checked her phone and maybe she received a text. 

"Oh no, she had an emergency, a family one." sabi ni Yana. 

"Oh my god, this is not happening." Nagpa-ikot-ikot si CC sa loob ng tent at hindi mapakali, she's starting to panic at mukhang magtatantrums sya any moment.

"Hey calm down." sabi ni Yana at hinawakan sya sa braso. I observed them clearly, it looked to me that Yana can control CC. She can calm her down, tumaas kilay ko sa kaganapan.

"I don't know why we messed up?"

"Well not yet." sabi ni Yana.

"No... I mean... ewan." I can see that her mind is flooded, she's overthinking. I do that a lot, I can't organize my thoughts lalo na nung nawala ang mga parents ko, she's having anxiety and it is clear. 

"We'll be fine, we can just improvise and get their parts. It's easy." Ngayon ko lang nakita tong side ni Yana. I am amazed by how she does this to CC, the CC that gets what she wants in a snap and gets mad if she can't. She's ... I don't know what to call it. 

"But it's gonna be only the three of us singing." I think this part she's craving for water. I just know. 

"Ceri can sing." sabi ni Yana saka tumingin sakin. Tumingin sila saking tatlo. Oh no... I don't like that look. "She's been with us since the beginning, and besides... she's our pianist, she'll be there, she'll cover up some parts. What do you think?" Oh no... Not me... I did not practice the voice part, I know how to do it but I don't know if I can execute it. Umiling ako. Tumingin ako kay Lili na nasa tabi ko. 

"Hindi magandang idea yon." bulong ko kay Lili.

"But I think we need to try." sabi ni Lili. Hindi pwede to... I am not born for this. Umiling ako.

"I'm gonna mess up!" sabi ko. 

"We're gonna mess up if we don't." sabi sakin ni CC. She held my shoulders staring into my eyes trying to find something in me that would convince her pride to do it with me but I was fighting it that this was not worth it. It's like we're talking through our eyes and it's working. I mean... the eye talking. 

"I am not confident." yun lang ang nasabi ko.

"You're gonna do it because I trust you." we paused for a moment still staring at each other's eyes. I bit my lip and then breathed a sigh. "Cool. Don't worry, not that much. I know it's hard to sing and play so we'll just split some parts." Kinuha niya ang lyrics niya at nag-usap-usap kaming apat sa parts and voicing, harmonization, and all. 

Hindi ako mapakali habang ginagawa namin to, it's a last-minute change that we don't like and we don't have a choice but to do it. Nakaramdam ako nang panghihina, nako... wag naman sa mismong performance.