Hindi pa din kami nagkikita ng mga pinsan ko. I barely talked to Frances about the song that they sang. Sobrang iwas ako, bitter ako, na-bitter ako sa mga nangyari. Kinukulit niya ako sa kantang ginawa namin kung paano sya nabuo pero iniwasan ko sya sa topic na yun dahil ayokong mag-result sa bitterness na words.
Mahalaga sakin yung kantang yun dahil most of my days was spent on that old music room trying so hard to make things better, then dumating si Craeyan who helped me through it. This was supposed to be a collaborative work of kuya Crae, Craeyan, and me, but what happened was Craeyan and Me. Totoo nga ang sinabi ni kuya Crae that we made his idea into reality kase kami ang tumapos sa nasimulan niya.
I sigh as I packed my things dahil tapos na ang shift ko sa OJT ko. Pag-graduate nila, nandito pa din ako. Frances will be working full time and focus on his career in showbusiness, I will see him everyday.
Ang gara talaga ng nararamdaman ko. Tumatawag sakin yung sundo ko, nandyan na daw sya sa parking kaya dali-dali akong umalis, sumakay ako ng elevator since nasa 5th floor ako, hindi ko pa na-e-explore tong buong building pero nasa 12th floor ata to.
"Gusto ko chemistry ni CC tsaka ni sir Frances."
"Yeah, they have a connection even off-cam eh, have you seen the Valentine's Day viral, they look so good!"
"Ahh yung sa flowers. May pagluhod pa no?" Tama. Nag-viral yun, I remained silent about it kase there's no point in arguing sa mga ganap na tapos na. And besides, hindi niya din kontrol yun, well he can control the rummors flying pero ayokong masira yung career nya dahil sakin.
"Naka-schedule na yata yung debut nila as a loveteam eh." Debut...
"Niluto na talaga ng management yun." management? Na-overhear ko naman tong usapan dito sa elevator, hindi ko sila kilala pero mas mukhang malapit sila sa mga ganap. So... naka-takdang mag debut sila as a loveteam... loveteam... wala pa syang nababanggit sakin na ganito. Ang alam ko lang sa mga music videos and product promos lang sila laging magkasama.
Bumaba sila ng ground floor tapos bumungad sakin si Frances, CC, tapos and creatives, sumakay sila ng elevator.
"Cerii..." sabi sakin ni Frances.
"Hi..." I awkwardly said. Napatingin naman ako kay CC, pilit syang ngumiti sakin. Pababa din sila ng parking?
"So ayon nga, we're heading there to meet the writer, tapos si direk of course, susunod na lang sya." Oh... Mukhang the rumors are true. I just smile sa gilid habang hinihintay makababa ng parking yung elevator. Tumingin lang sakin si Frances since he's listening to the instruction of the coordinator.
Same basement lang naman kami pero pinauna ko silang bumaba. Frances was just staring at me while CC clung to his arms. I was watching them as the elevator door closed.
The moment that it closed napahawak ako sa handrail ng elevator. It was too much for me to handle... I guess... Naramdaman ko ang pag-agos ng luha ko sa pisngi ko, involuntarily. Sumikip dibdib ko, mukhang naiipon na mga sama ng loob ko.
Hindi ko lang siguro maamin na sobrang nasasaktan na ako sa lahat ng mga nangyayari kasi mahal ko si Frances. Siguro tinitiis ko lang lahat, I just say that it's fine which is totally and really fine, I meant those words, but I guess your heart can feel the pain even if you genuinely said that you understand everything. Laging merong kasunod yun even if you don't mean to be in pain. Siguro yun yung nararamdaman ko right now, I am also trying to observe my heart and myself knowing it more on times like this.
BINABASA MO ANG
The Bridge
Teen FictionCerium lost interest in life after her parents died in an accident. She was sent to live together with her aunt. She was enrolled in a prestigious school where she met the elites of a music club that would make her life run like a song and will lead...
